I was invited as a guest to film a You Tube program in the woods of Chiba.
千葉の森の中でとあるYouTube 番組の撮影にゲストとして招待され行ってまいりました。
こんにちは、こんばんは、おはようございます。先週も一週間お疲れ様でした…….
新しい一週間も明けましておめでとうございます。
何かと慌ただしかった先週、地震も各地であり、南海トラフとの声も上がり、メディアの影響か
こちらでもスーパーやコンビニの棚から水が消えたとの事
何より影響がそれほど大きくなかったのが幸いですね……
地震警報アラートの音に驚きつつも、その音の後にすぐきた地震に、アラートの精度が上がっているのではないかと感じた瞬間
身構える余裕があってからの地震に、心の準備が一瞬で出来たものの、あの音には毎度驚かされます……
東日本大震災の際は、その後続く余震の中、歯医者で治療中に警報アラートの音が鳴り響き、思わず先生もビクッとしていた様子
違う歯を削られなくて良かったですが、繊細な作業中にあの音が鳴ったらと思うと、少し怖い気もしますね……
しかし地震が去ったと思ったら今度は台風が……今週も空は慌ただしそうですが、時には空も地面も緑たちも雨に癒されたいですね…..
さて、自分は今体がバキバキの筋肉痛そして至る所がヒリヒリ、ジリジリ、メキメキ、いくつ擬音語があっても足りないくらい痛いところだらけなのですが、実は先日千葉の森の中へ「髙」とは別の件で行ってまいりました…….
本来なら断りそうな案件に、こちtらの返事を聞いた先方もまさかの返事に「おぉっ」と驚いている様子でしたが、時には表にも出ないと
それに何より力になれるならと言う思いもあり「髙」を代表して行ってまいりました。
しかし、後悔はありませんが、油断したら骨くらい折れていたかもしれない状況の数々に、身体が悲鳴を上げていました
いくら毎日ストレッチや筋トレ、サイクリング、時にランニングをしているからとは言え、使う筋肉が全然違くて
お陰で今も体中が傷だらけ筋肉が悲鳴を上げ、指先も手のひらも拳をなくした右手も悲鳴を上げ
腕が自分の腕じゃないみたいな感覚が今もまだ続いています……
元WORLD ORDERを背負い「髙」を背負い、負けられない戦い……
千葉の森は初老のオリンピックが開催されていたのでしょうかね……
なんて、まだ詳しい事は公開できませんが、じゃれ合うおじさん達の様子がいつか観れる事と思いますので
その際改めてご報告させていただきます。
ちなみに場所の事情もあり今回だけでは撮りきれず、再度千葉の森まで……
本当はもう行きたくないけれど、死ぬ覚悟で最後まで「髙」を背負い挑戦出来ればと思っております…….
帰りの車から見えたスカイツリー
あ、その撮影中なのですが、また体に脳になのかわかりませんが、あの死を感じる感覚、匂いが突然起こり
意識はあるのですが、体の感覚と脳の感覚がズレているような、この光景以前夢の中で見た事あるなと思った瞬間
音がこもったように聴こえ、夢の中なのか現実なのかわからなくなり、そのまま気が遠くなりそうなのをこのままじゃヤバいと思い「頑張れ、頑張れ」と声に出して言い聞かせながら意識を保っていたのですが、他の誰にもその様子は伝わることなく撮影は続いたのですが、いったいどう映っていたのか……急に夢の世界に入り込んだような当たりのピントはぼやけ本当に夢の中の世界のような……
色々調べると、離人症と言う病名の物があるらしく、読んでみると、近いようなでもそれよりももっとはっきりと感覚臭覚に残る感じ……誰か同じ様な経験をされた方されている方がいらっしゃるのかわかりませんが、この感覚を共有出来たら通じ合えたら面白くはないですが、少し心が落ち着く気がします。
とは言え、その離人症も薬があるわけでもなく治療方法は確立されていないようで……
ちなみに、変な薬等は一切やっておりませんので……
でも、そうゆう薬をやっている人の感覚に少し似ているのかもしれませんね,トレインスポッティングの世界のような感覚があるのは少し似ているかもしれません……
この感覚が怖くて、本当に毎度毎度来た……と思うのですが……本当に気持ちが悪いんです……
いつか本当に病院で診てもらわないといけないかもです……
皆さんもお身体はくれぐれも大切になさって下さいね
祝日から始まった新しい一週間も、どうか心あたたかな一週間の日々時間でありますように……
あしたも良い一日でありますように……
優しい風がいつも心にそっと、吹きますように…….
また明日
何にも負けない最強の自分で生きよう。
I was invited as a guest to film a You Tube program in the woods of Chiba.
Hello, good evening, good morning. Thank you for your hard work last week…
Happy new week!
Last week was a hectic time, with earthquakes happening all over the place, and people calling it the Nankai Trough, perhaps due to the influence of the media.
Here too, water has disappeared from the shelves of supermarkets and convenience stores.
I’m glad that the impact wasn’t that big…
I was surprised by the sound of the earthquake warning alert, but when I saw the earthquake that followed immediately after that sound, I realized that the accuracy of the alert had improved.
Even though I was able to mentally prepare for the earthquake after I had time to prepare, I am always surprised by that sound…
During the Great East Japan Earthquake, during the aftershocks that followed, an alarm alert sounded during treatment at the dentist, and even the doctor was startled.
I’m glad I didn’t have to cut the wrong tooth, but I’m a little scared of hearing that sound during delicate work…
But just when I thought the earthquake was gone, a typhoon hit…The sky seems to be hectic again this week, but sometimes I want the sky, the ground, and the greenery to be soothed by the rain…
Now, my body is sore, my muscles are pounding, and I’m in pain everywhere, so no matter how many onomatopoeias there are, it won’t be enough.In fact, the other day I went into the woods in Chiba and called “Taka”. I went on another matter…
When the other party heard our response to the project, which they would otherwise have declined, they seemed surprised by the unexpected response, but sometimes we have to show it to the public.
Above all, I wanted to be of help, so I went to represent Taka.
However, although I have no regrets, my body was screaming at the number of situations where I could have broken bones if I had let my guard down.
No matter how much I stretch, muscle train, cycle, and sometimes run every day, the muscles I use are completely different.
Thanks to you, my whole body is still scarred and my muscles are screaming, and my right hand, which has lost its fingertips, palm, and fist, is also screaming.
I still feel like my arm is not my own…
Carrying the former WORLD ORDER on his back and carrying “Taka” on his back, a battle that cannot be defeated…
I wonder if the Elderly Olympics was held in Chiba Forest…
I can’t reveal the details yet, but I’m sure you’ll get to see the old men playing with each other someday.
We will report again at that time.
By the way, due to the location, I couldn’t take all the photos this time, so I went back to the Chiba forest…
I don’t really want to go there anymore, but I’m willing to take on the challenge until the end with the determination to die…
TOKYO SKY Tree.
Ah, while I was filming, I don’t know if it was in my body or brain, but I suddenly had that feeling and smell of death again.
I was conscious, but the sensations in my body and the sensations in my brain seemed to be out of sync, and the moment I realized I had seen this scene in a dream before.
The sounds sounded muffled, and I couldn’t tell if I was in a dream or in reality, and I thought I was going to pass out, so I kept trying to stay conscious by telling myself out loud, “Do your best, do your best.” However, the shooting continued without letting anyone else know what was going on, but I wonder how it turned out… It was like I had suddenly entered a dream world, and the focus was really blurry. Like a world in a dream…
After doing some research, it seems that there is a disease called depersonalization syndrome, and when I read about it, I found that it seems similar, but it leaves a more distinct feeling in my senses of smell…I wonder if anyone has had a similar experience. I don’t know if there are people out there who are feeling the same way, but if we could share this feeling, it wouldn’t be fun, but I would feel a little calmer.
However, there seems to be no established treatment method for depersonalization, as there is no medicine for it…
By the way, I don’t take any strange drugs…
But maybe it’s a little similar to how people who take such drugs feel, or maybe it’s a little similar to the feeling that comes from the world of Trainspotting…
I’m so scared of this feeling that it comes every time…I think it feels really bad…
I might actually have to go to the hospital someday…
Everyone please take good care of your body.
This new week that started with a holiday, I hope you have a warm and heart-warming day…
I hope tomorrow will be a good day too…
May the gentle wind always blow gently into your heart…
See you tomorrow
Let’s live our lives as our strongest selves without losing to anything.
Akihiro Takahashi
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