開戦 : 僕の子供の頃を思い出させる､姪っ子との闘い……
開戦 : A fight with my niece that reminds me of my childhood……
高校の卒業そして大学入学と同時に実家へ越してきた姪っ子､声が増え賑やかになった実家
父と母も振り回されながらも､どこか嬉しそうで､ぶうぶう言いながらも元気に早朝から動き回っています……
赤ちゃんの頃は座布団に寝かされタオルを掛けてスヤスヤ寝ていた赤ちゃんの美羽の姿も
良輔を腕に抱え美羽と手を繋いで一緒にお祭りに行ったこともありましたが
もうにぃにぃと身長も変わらないくらい大きくなった美羽
画像は大学の入学式へ慌てて向かう早朝……
電車に乗り遅れると慌てて駆けて飛び出していきました……
それから暫くし､実家の暮らしにも慣れ
有名なハワイにほんてんのあるパンケーキ屋さんと品川のサラダ屋さんのバイト二つ掛け持ちで頑張る美羽
そんな美羽はすっかり生意気になり
にぃにぃとよく言い合いしています……
なんだかそんなやり取りが子供の頃の弟とのやり取りのようでなんだか嬉しくて
ブスだのうるせぇだの言い合いながら
賑やかな実家を顔を出す度に感じるこの頃
ある日いただいたドーナツを実家に持って帰った日の夜の事……
LINEの通知音
開いてみると実家のうるさい姪っ子から……
にぃにぃがいただいて帰ったとも知らずに
闘いを挑んできました……(笑)
翌朝置いてあったドーナツの箱を開けてみると、全部齧った形跡のあるドーナツが……
全部自分の物だと跡を残し誰にも食べさせないようにしていた美羽(笑)
それを食べきれないから食べてもいいよって……食いかけかい！(笑)
こんなやり取り伸輔とも子供の頃していたな
冷蔵庫の自分の物が無くなっていると
あっちゃん食べたでしょとか……
逆に伸輔食べたでしょ?
僕はほぼほぼ食べてなくて犯人では無くて
でも伸輔はだいたい僕のものを食べた犯人で……
それで口を利かない事もあったり
そんなやり取りが今は伸輔の娘と……
だいたい冷蔵庫の中の物が無くなっていると
「にぃにぃ美羽のアロエヨーグルト食べたべ!?」
仲居くん風な神奈川弁で疑ってきます
自分が買ってきたわけでもないのに……
でも犯人は自分ではなく母で……
だいたい最初ににぃにぃを疑ってきます……
美羽の中でにぃにぃはネズミらしく(笑)
実家の食べ物飲み物が無い時無くなった時は
まずにぃにぃが怪しいらしいです……
何でやねん!
と思い言い返しながらも
なんだかそんなやり取りが懐かしい瞬間
そんな美羽が朝御飯を食べながら描き
にぃにぃに見せると持ってきて
「美羽上手たべ!?」
と､この小学生みたいな絵を渡され下手ではないし何だか大学生なのに可愛らしい絵描くなと思った瞬間
でも自分だっておじさんなのに可愛らしいキャラクター描いたりしてるし
とか思っていると
「行ってきます!やべぇバス間に合わない!」と､また飛び出していった朝(笑)
自分は毎朝神社へ行った後実家へ顔を出し
雨戸を開けてあげて､神棚に祈り､その後コーヒーを一杯もらい
父母の様子を見て戻る
その流れの中にうるさい美羽が加わり
朝から賑やかな実家
キッチンの棚の上にずっとマグネットで貼ってある伸輔が中学生の頃
お金をねだる為に描いた可愛らしい絵がもう何年もずっと貼ってある
まさか漫画家になるなんてこの頃は思っていなかっただろう伸輔……
今週はまた体調が不安定になり点滴が再開され昨日から熱が上がり抗生剤が再開され
また苦しい一週間を乗り越えるために頑張る弟
そしてうるさい美羽
でもそんな親子に小さな癒しと懐かしさを感じ
自分も頑張れます
先日は月に一度の診察へ……
最初にMRIを撮って画像のコピーをいただき
紹介状をいただいた帰り道
この場所で腰を下ろし
自分も亡くなった友とまさか同じ病気になるとは､と途方にくれ間違いであれと祈った瞬間……
あの頃から自分も一つ乗り越え
弟はいくつもの試練を乗り越え今があり
美羽もこれからいくつもの試練があるだろうけど
真っ直ぐに生きろよ
と､そう思うにぃにぃなのでした……
生意気でうるさいけど……
そして昨日病院へ向かう際玄関を出て下へ視線を向けると
お隣の室外機の上からこちらを見上げる……
あの見覚えのある美人な顔の猫は……
ジュリエットでした……
改めてこんにちは､こんばんは､おはようございます
新しい一週間も折り返しの水曜日
日々辛いことも苦しいことも色々あると思うけど
でもそれ以上にきっと素敵な事がある
待っていると思い､感じ信じ
今を生きましょう
がんばるおじさんのあの動画､ヘラヘラしてるだけかと思いきや､実は腰に体重をかけられながら反る動き､腰痛持ちにはキツくて……
それに笑ってと言われると笑えなくて……
痛いし笑えないけど歯を見せて笑顔で挑戦させていただきました……(笑)
みなさん一週間の後半も
心あたたかな日々時間でありますように……
いつも心に優しい風が吹きますように……
今週もありがとうございました
引き続きメンバーBlogで癒されてください……
それではまた来週
残りの一週間の日々も
強く優しくあたたかく
生きよう｡
にぃにぃ
髙橋 昭博
Outbreak of war : A fight with my niece that reminds me of my childhood……
My niece moved to my parents’ house when she graduated from high school and entered university, and the house became lively with more voices.
Even though his father and mother are being thrown around, they seem to be happy, and although they are grumbling, they are moving around energetically since early morning…
When she was a baby, Miu was placed on a cushion and covered with a towel, sleeping soundly.
There was a time when we went to a festival together holding Ryosuke in my arms and holding hands with Miu.
Miu has grown to the same height as Niini.
The image was taken early in the morning as I hurried to my university entrance ceremony…
When I missed the train, I ran in a panic and jumped out…
After a while, I got used to life at home.
Miu works hard at two part-time jobs, one at a famous pancake shop in Hawaii and another at a salad shop in Shinagawa.
Miu became completely cocky.
I often argue with Niini…
For some reason, that kind of interaction was like the one I had with my younger brother when we were kids, and I was kind of happy.
While arguing with each other about how ugly and noisy
Nowadays, I feel this every time I show up at my lively home.
The night I brought the donuts I received one day back to my parents’ house…
LINE notification sound
When I opened it, my noisy niece from my parents’ house…
I didn’t even know that Niini had come home with me.
I challenged myself to a fight…(lol)
I had this kind of exchange with Shinsuke when I was a kid.
When my things are missing from the refrigerator
Acchan ate it…
On the other hand, Shinsuke ate it, right?
I haven’t eaten much at all, so I’m not the culprit.
But Shinsuke is the culprit who ate mine…
That’s why I sometimes don’t speak.
That kind of exchange is now with Shinsuke’s daughter…
Usually something is missing from the refrigerator.
“Did you eat Niini Miu’s aloe yogurt!?”
He asks questions in Nakai-kun style Kanagawa dialect.
Even though I didn’t buy it myself…
But the culprit is not me but my mother…
I’m usually the first to suspect Niini…
Niini looks like a mouse inside Miu (lol)
When you don’t have food or drink at home or when you run out
First of all, it seems that Nini is suspicious…
Why?
Even though I thought and retorted,
I feel nostalgic for that kind of interaction.
Miu drew this while eating breakfast.
I showed it to Niini and she brought it to me.
“Miu Utabe!?”
Then, when I was given this drawing that looked like an elementary school student’s drawing, I thought that he was not bad at it, and that even though he was a college student, he still drew a cute drawing.
But even though I’m an old man, I still draw cute characters.
I’m thinking that
In the morning, I said, “I’m going! I can’t make it on time for the bus!” and ran out again (lol)
I go to the shrine every morning and then go to my parents’ house.
Open the shutters, pray at the altar, and then get a cup of coffee.
Go back to check on your parents.
The noisy Miu joins the flow.
My parents’ house is lively from the morning
Shinsuke has been stuck on the kitchen shelf with a magnet since he was in junior high school.
The cute picture I drew to ask for money has been up there for years.
Shinsuke probably never thought he would become a manga artist back then…
This week, my condition became unstable again, and the intravenous drip was restarted, and since yesterday my fever has increased, and antibiotics have been restarted.
My brother is trying his best to get through another tough week.
And noisy Miu
But I felt a small sense of comfort and nostalgia for these parents and children.
I can do my best too
The other day I went to my monthly doctor’s appointment…
First, get an MRI and receive a copy of the images.
On the way home after receiving a letter of introduction
sit down in this place
The moment I was at a loss and prayed that I was wrong, thinking that I too would suffer from the same disease as my deceased friend…
Since then, I have overcome one thing too.
My younger brother has overcome many trials and is now here.
Miu will probably face many trials in the future.
Live straight
That’s what I thought…
I’m cheeky and noisy, but…
And yesterday, when I headed to the hospital, I stepped out the front door and looked down.
Looking up from above the outdoor unit next door…
That familiar cat with a beautiful face…
It was Juliet…
Hello again, good evening, good morning
Wednesday marks the end of a new week
I think there are many hard and painful times every day.
But there’s probably something even more wonderful than that.
I feel and believe that I’m waiting
Let’s live now
In that video of an old man trying his best, you might think he’s just flopping around, but in reality, he’s bending while putting weight on his lower back, which is tough for people with back pain…
And when I’m told to smile, I can’t smile…
It hurt and I couldn’t smile, but I showed my teeth and gave it a try… (lol)
Everyone, the second half of the week
I hope you have a warm day…
May the wind always blow in your heart…
Thank you very much for this week
Please continue to be healed by the member blogs…
See you next week
The rest of the week too
strong, gentle and warm
Let’s live.
Niini
Akihiro Takahashi
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