記憶 : 懐かしい想い出を抱え生きる
記憶 : I live my life with nostalgic memories……
新しい一週間4月最後の一週間と新しい月､5月始まりの週末
新しい一週間明けましておめでとうございます……
先週も一週間お疲れ様でした
先週も一週間ありがとうございました……
恋に恋した先週､川崎工業地帯の中心で心の中で愛をさけび続けた一週間
ずっと心がドキドキし音楽と懐かしい感覚に浸っていた先週から
激しい雨で始まった新しい一週間､始まりの月曜日
日中一時晴れた空も弟の病院から出る頃はまた重たい雲に覆われ
雨に濡れながら帰った帰路
でも全く嫌じゃなくて
雨が気持ち良く感じた今の自分の心
今はどうやら無敵のようなそんな感覚
恋に恋してるだけなのに無敵になれるなんて……
まるでスーパーマリオがスターをゲットした時のようなそんな状態でした
実際は雨に濡れていても自分の心が雨を弾いているような
恋と言う言葉だけでも恋の力って凄いんだなと改めて感じた始まりの月曜日……
今週もふと若かったあの頃の思い出が蘇ったった朝……
また小さな恋の物語を勝手に贈り工業地帯の中心で愛をさけびます……
僕がまだ21歳の頃のお話し……
専門学校を卒業し自分はパッチギやちむどんどんの羽原さん監修の劇団につかこうへい劇団の方達と出演させてもらいつつ､所属していた事務所ではTV向けのお芝居の稽古をしたり､愛川欽也さんの付き人として明治座や帝国劇場へ出入りし
多くの大御所俳優さん方を紹介していただいたりご挨拶させていただいたりしていた頃
ある日ダンスの練習で放課後の母校を訪れダンスチームの練習をしたりしていた時のお話し
同じ様に事務所へ入った友達からミュージカル「リボンの騎士」観に来てくれと言われ観劇しに……
その時隣の席はウド鈴木さんと飯尾さん(笑)
それはどうでも良く､その観劇後友達から連絡があり
一緒に出演していた高校生の女の子にダンスを振り付けして欲しいとの事……
どういう流れでか引き受けることになり
舞台の稽古で度々使用させていただいていた
つかこうへい劇団のある北区のスタジオを借り､いざ初対面
その時は知らなかったのですが
その当時の北村一輝さんの事務所と同じ事務所へ所属する女優さん……
まだ16歳(早生まれ)で高校二年生の女の子
何度か稽古をし振り付けをし､最後の日
いつもは送り迎えしていなかったけれど
心がさけびたがっていたのか､最後だからと
東京駅から高速バスで茨城まで帰る彼女を送って行き
東京駅の改札越しにバイバイした後
「ちょっと待って……」
どうしてもその瞬間に伝えたかった想い……
いつ好きになったのかいつ恋したのか……
気持ちが溢れ
「あの､つきあってください……」
と右手を伸ばす自分
照れ笑いで動揺する高校二年生の女の子と21歳のまだ何者でもない自分
「わかった､でも後でこたえを連絡する……」
「うん｡わかった……」
自分は東京駅改札で遠ざかっていく彼女の背をもう二度と逢わないんじゃないか逢えないんじゃないかと思い見つめる
何度も振り返り手を降る彼女……
そのまま見えなくなり自分も電車に乗り帰る
何だか心が落ち着かない……
駆け出したかったあの瞬間
「恋の第三次世界大戦」のワンシーンのような……
その後家に帰った頃､連絡があり
その当時はLINEやスマートフォンなんてなくガラケーと言うやつで……
電話を取ると
「つきあう」と……
それから動き始めた恋､さすがに事務所に所属する女の子､エスカレーターですれ違う女の子達が「可愛い……」とか街を歩いていたら
写真を撮らせてくださいとか……
度々そんなことがあった
それから度々学校を抜け出し高速バスで会いに来てはお母さんから連絡があり
「あーちゃんに逢いたいからとか言って学校抜け出したりサボったり……ごめんなさいね!よろしくね」とか……
喧嘩した時にはもう口を利かないと言い連絡もないから
突然高速バスで彼女のアルバイトするコンビニ行き偶然を装い入ると
それまで口も利かなかった彼女が照れ臭そうに
「なんで居るの?」と……
「はいっ」とコーヒーゼリーをくれ
ヨシッと思い「ごめんね伝えに来ただけ､じゃあ帰るから」と言うと
「もうすぐ終わるから待ってて」と
全く知らない茨城のスーパーの前にあるベンチでぼぉぉっと彼女を待っていると……
ニコニコしながら来て「一緒に帰る」と
そのまま高速バスで家へ……
そんな日々の中､深夜たまたま目覚めた時
TVを点けると背の高いビルに飛行機が突っ込んで行く映像が……
そう911のテロが起きた日でした……
その当時はまだおじいちゃんおばあちゃんも生きていておじいちゃんおばあちゃんが大好きだった彼女
逢えばにっこり笑って寄っていき茨城訛り全快でおしゃべりする……
喧嘩をすれば逃亡し探したらもんじゃ焼き屋さんに居たり､怒ったら布団を被ってそのまま寝てしまったり､喧嘩も沢山したし今では可愛く思えるワガママもその当時は自分も若く我慢できず
別れがくる……
自分は別れたら戻るとかそう言ったことは考えられず､もう二度と逢わなくなった彼女
今は何をしているのか結婚し大切な人がいるのかどうなのか全くわからないけれど
駆け出したくなるような恋をしお仕事も舞台も事務所も付き人もバイトも全力で駆けずり回っていたあの頃
ダンスのお仕事はずっと断り続け､舞台が大好きだったあの頃
そろそろダンスのお仕事もするか……
とairmanと言う振り付けグループからのお誘いを受け一発目のダンスのお仕事が
須藤元気引退試合の入場パフォーマンスでした……
その当時は弟に頼まれ､打ち上げの席で元気さんにサインをお願いした自分が今はこうして一緒のグループで活動させていただくことになるなんて､この当時は思いもしなくて
その後いただいたダンスのお仕事は全部やり
ポッキー､午後の紅茶､バイク王､第一生命ではいくつものシリーズのCMに出演させていただき､紅白歌合戦もMステもSONGSも何でも出させていただきました……
自分から駆け出した恋なんて､女性と合う機会を避けていた自分には本当に無くて
小学校の時好きだった女の子に電話で一緒に家庭科の材料買いに行こうと行った時以来だったかもしれません……
その当時自分の心はこうさけんでいただろう
茨城と川崎工業地帯の中心､東京駅で「好きだぁぁぁぁぁぁっ!」と……
散々友達には高校生とお付き合いするなんて犯罪だ犯罪だと言われたけれど
恋する二人はきっと無敵だったのでしょう……
元気で笑ってくれて生きてくれていると良いな……
と､そう思います……
そんな26年前の思い出が今も頭に鮮明に台詞まで残っているなんて
僕の脳はまだまだ青春まっしぐら(笑)
元気なようです……
今週も青春の一ページを勝手にお届けしました……(笑)
日曜日午前中は発表会でした午後は彼らのダンスを観て体験したい子供達もそして大人クラスにはお父さんも参加し2クラスのレッスンでした……
最後に彼らのダンスを観てあげてください……
青春まっしぐらの脳みその自分
発表会前､楽屋で円陣を組み先生から一言ずつと振られた際
「みんな青春だ! 笑顔いっぱいで頑張れ青春!」
みたいなことを言うと……
先生も含めみんなキョトンとしてしまい
でもそんな中､新小学一年生のひなたちゃんだけが
笑顔100%で「頑張れ青春!」と笑顔で拳を突き上げてくれました(笑)
ひなたちゃんに救われた日曜日の午前中
ちなみにその当時お付き合いしていた高校生の女の子の名字(芸名)が「ひなた」でした……
新しい一週間もみんな雨をも弾く青春まっしぐらで
あたたかく生きましょう
気持よく晴れた雨上がりの火曜日
朝の神社で感じたオレンジ色の朝陽も優しい色をしていました……
伸輔今週末には埋め込み式の点滴ポートの埋め込手術があります
今朝は早朝から手術する先生の説明を聞きに病院へ……
伸輔もまた一歩､青春へ……
自分もまだまだ脳みそ青春まっしぐらで、NO腫瘍で生きます……
新しい一週間も最後まで
強く優しくあたたかく
世界の中心で愛をさけび生きましょう行きましょう
いつも心に優しい風が吹きますように……
また明日
長々失礼しました……(笑)
髙橋 昭博
Memories: I live my life with nostalgic memories…
A new week, the last week of April and a new month, the first weekend of May
Happy new week…
Thank you for your hard work last week.
Thank you very much for last week…
Last week I fell in love, a week in which I continued to cry out for love in my heart in the heart of the Kawasaki industrial area.
Since last week, my heart has been pounding and I’ve been immersed in music and nostalgic feelings.
Monday begins a new week with heavy rain
The sky was sunny for a while during the day, but by the time I left my brother’s hospital, it was covered in heavy clouds again.
On the way home wet from the rain
But I don’t dislike it at all
My heart feels good in the rain now
I feel like I’m invincible now
I can’t believe I can become invincible just because I’m in love…
It was like when Super Mario got a star.
Even though I’m actually wet in the rain, it feels like my heart is repelling the rain.
The first Monday made me realize once again that the power of love is amazing just by using the word love…
This week again, this morning, memories of when I was young came back to me…
I will also send you a small love story and cry out for love in the heart of the industrial area…
A story from when I was only 21 years old…
After graduating from vocational school, I joined the theater troupe supervised by Mr. Habara of Pacchigi Yachimudondon.While performing with members of the Kohei Theater Company, I also practiced for plays for TV at the agency I belonged to, and attended Meijiza and Imperial Theaters as Kinya Aikawa’s attendant.
Back when I was introduced to and greeted many famous actors.
One day, I went to my alma mater after school for dance practice and was practicing with the dance team.
A friend who also came to the office asked me to come see the musical “Knight of the Ribbon” and I went to see the play…
At that time, the seats next to me were Udo Suzuki and Iio (lol)
It didn’t matter, my friend contacted me after seeing the play.
They wanted a high school girl who was performing with them to choreograph the dance…
Somehow I ended up accepting it.
It was often used in stage rehearsals.
We rented a studio in Kita Ward, where Tsukakohei Theater Company is located, and we met for the first time.
I didn’t know it at the time.
An actress who belonged to the same agency as Kazuki Kitamura at that time…
A girl who is only 16 years old (born early) and a second year high school student.
After rehearsing and choreographing several times, on the last day
Although I didn’t usually pick them up.
Did my heart want to cry out because it was the last time?
I dropped her off on the express bus from Tokyo Station to Ibaraki.
After saying goodbye through the ticket gate at Tokyo Station
“Wait a minute…”
The feelings I really wanted to convey at that moment…
When did you fall in love? When did you fall in love…
Overflowing with feelings
“Well, please come with me…”
I extend my right hand and say,
A second-year high school girl who is embarrassed by her shy smile and me, a 21-year-old who is still a nobody.
“Okay, but I’ll let you know the answer later…”
“Yeah. Understood…”
I stare at her as she walks away from me at the Tokyo Station ticket gate, thinking that I may never see her again.
She looks back and hands down many times…
It just disappears and I get on the train and go home.
Somehow I can’t calm down…
That moment when I wanted to run away
Like a scene from “World War III of Love”…
After that, when I got home, I got a call.
At that time, there were no LINE or smartphones, and it was just a flip phone…
when I pick up the phone
“Go out with each other”…
After that, the romance started to move, and as expected, the girls who belong to the agency and the girls who passed each other on the escalator were walking down the street and saying, “You’re cute…”
Please let me take a photo…
That happened often
After that, I often slipped out of school and came to see her on the express bus, but my mother would contact me.
“I skipped school or skipped school because I wanted to meet A-chan…I’m sorry! Nice to meet you”…
When we fight, he says he won’t speak to me anymore and doesn’t contact me.
Suddenly, I took an express bus to the convenience store where my girlfriend works part-time, pretending to be a coincidence.
She, who had not spoken until then, seemed embarrassed.
“Why are you here?”…
“Yes,” give me the coffee jelly.
I thought to myself, “I just came to tell you I’m sorry, I’ll go home then.”
“It’ll be over soon, so please wait.”
I was waiting for my girlfriend on a bench in front of a supermarket in Ibaraki that I didn’t know at all…
When you come smiling and go home together
Just take the express bus home…
During those days, when I happened to wake up late at night,
When I turned on the TV, I saw an image of a plane crashing into a tall building…
Yes, it was the day the 911 terrorist attack occurred…
At that time, her grandparents were still alive and she loved them very much.
When I meet him, he smiles, approaches me, and chats with me in his full Ibaraki accent…
If we got into a fight, he would run away and when I looked for him, he would end up in the Monjayaki shop, or if he got angry, he would just cover himself with the futon and fall asleep.We had a lot of fights, and the selfishness that seems cute now was back then when I was too young and couldn’t stand it.
Parting is coming…
I couldn’t imagine ever saying that I would go back to her after we broke up, and I never saw her again.
I have no idea what I’m doing now, whether I’m married and have a significant other, but…
Those days when I was in love that made me want to run away, and running around with all my might between work, the stage, the office, my attendants, and my part-time job.
Back then, I kept turning down dance jobs and loved the stage.
Are you planning to do some dance work soon?
I received an invitation from a choreography group called airman and got my first dance job.
It was the entrance performance for Genki Sudo’s retirement match…
At that time, my younger brother asked me to sign Genki’s autograph at the launch, but I never imagined that I would now be working in a group with him.
After that, I did all the dance jobs I received.
I have appeared in commercials for many series such as Pocky, Gogo no Kochachi, Bike King, and Dai-ichi Life, as well as Kouhaku Uta Gassen, M Station, SONGS, etc…
The kind of love that started on my own was something I didn’t really have because I avoided opportunities to meet women.
It may have been since I called a girl I liked in elementary school and asked her to go shopping for home economics materials with me…
That’s what my heart was saying at that time.
“I love you!” at Tokyo Station, in the center of the Ibaraki and Kawasaki industrial areas…
My friends told me that dating a high school student was a crime.
The two in love must have been invincible…
I hope you are healthy, smiling and alive…
That’s what I think…
I can’t believe that those memories from 26 years ago are still so clear in my head, even the lines are still there.
My brain is still in its youth (lol)
Seems to be fine…
This week too, I brought you a page from my youth… (lol)
On Sunday morning there was a recital, and in the afternoon there were two classes of lessons, with children who wanted to watch and experience their dance, and fathers also in the adult class…
Please watch their dance at the end…
My brain is in the throes of youth
Before the recital, we formed a circle in the dressing room and were waved off by the teacher with a word.
“Everyone is young! Do your best with a big smile, young people!”
If you say something like…
Everyone, including the teacher, was stunned.
But in the midst of all this, Hinata-chan, a new first-year elementary school student, is the only one
He was smiling 100% and said, “Good luck, youth!” and raised his fist (lol)
Sunday morning when I was saved by Hinata-chan
By the way, the last name (stage name) of the high school girl I was dating at the time was “Hinata”…
This new week is full of youth that defies the rain.
Let’s live warmly
Shinsuke: I’m having surgery to implant an implantable drip port this weekend.
This morning I went to the hospital early in the morning to listen to the explanation from the doctor who was going to perform the surgery…
Shinsuke takes another step towards youth…
I’m still living my life with my brain still in full swing…
Until the end of the new week
strong, gentle and warm
Let’s cry out and live our love in the center of the world.Let’s go.
May the wind always blow in your heart…
See you tomorrow
Sorry for the inconvenience…(lol)
Akihiro Takahashi
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