赤糸 : 小さな声と大きな一歩
赤糸 : A small voice and a big step.
昨日寝る前に何だか映画が観たくなり
ずっと観てなかった映画【糸】を観ました
【糸】主人公は高橋漣
偶然にもタカハシ､ヒロインは園田葵
自分の思い出と重なるはずはないけど重ねるように観た映画
退院以来初めて観た映画､かな……
この役を演じた二人も赤い糸で繋がっていたんだなと､そんなことも思いながら観た映画
こんな出逢いそして別れ､繋がり､役の中の壮絶な人生
人にはそれぞれに物語があり､今があり
自分はどこの誰と赤い糸で繋がっているのか出逢っているのか別れているのか繋がっているのかはわかりませんが
縦の糸はあなた､横の糸はわたし……
そんな歌詞がこの映画が演じた二人の糸を紡いでくれたようで
違う映画の見方だったと思うけれど､そんな二人の出逢いを感じ観た映画
そんな映画の見方もまた面白いなと感じました
青春の思い出を振り返りながら
今ある青春を想う……
【もうひとつの糸】
僕ら兄弟の幼馴染み､母親の友達(名前も同じ順子)の娘､姉妹
ディズニーランドの近くに住んでいて､子供の頃初めてのディズニーランドに行った時はその幼馴染み家族と……
髪の短いショートカットのお姉ちゃんと笑顔が可愛らしい妹
僕はお姉ちゃんの事が好きで逢えるのが毎回嬉しくて､お泊まりに来た時も嬉しくて
久々の再会は僕が20代後半の頃､渋谷の居酒屋で､お姉さんはキャリアウーマン､妹はディズニーグッズなどを扱う会社の営業
弟は漫画家､僕はたまにお芝居に出演しながら､契約社員として働いていた頃
皆それぞれに自分のお仕事を道を進む中
大人になってからの再会
懐かしい顔､お姉さんも妹も綺麗になっていて
でも話せばあの頃と変わらない幼馴染みのまま
それから帰りの電車､皆それぞれ予定があり､僕は酔っていた妹を送り電車でディズニーの方の駅まで……
別れる時､どうしてか泣き出した彼女
色々な悩みがあったのか……
久々の再会が久々に自分を出せた心許せる時間だったのか……
もう逢えない感覚になったようで……
笑顔しか見たことの無かった彼女の涙
家の傍まで送りサヨナラ
それから時折連絡をとるようになった彼女
まさか幼馴染み同士で､しかも妹とお付き合いするなんて､子供の頃好きだったお姉さんではなく妹と……
思ってもなかった未来
それから仕事終わりに度々逢うようになり
でもお酒が強いと勘違いしている彼女
飲むと行方不明になったり
弟と車で渋谷まで行き明け方の渋谷の街を探した事もありました……
彼女は僕に色んなものを諦めて
普通に働いてほしくなくてやりたいことをめいいっぱいやってほしくて
別れが決まってからもう買っていしまっていたチケットでそれぞれ行った初めての海外
向こうで一緒にご飯を食べ､たまたま寄った
モールの一階入り口でやっていたダンスイベントのリハーサル
その出演ダンサーに僕もダンスをやっているよと声をかけると､主催者に何か話している様子で､じゃあ本番においでよと主催者の方に言われそのまま帰り翌日
泊まっているホテルから距離があったので悩んでいた時
にぃのダンスが見たいからと､行った方がいいと言われまた再会し一緒に向かったイベント会場のモール
(※小さな頃から今も数年に一度LINEが来るとそのまま変わらない呼び名､お兄ちゃんの【にぃ】伸輔も歳はお兄ちゃんだけど伸輔はしんちゃん……)
そして出演者のダンスを見ていた時､司会者がマイクで日本からのゲスト出演者との声
その声に出演者のダンサー達が見ていた僕の手を取りステージへ……
音楽が流れ､一人思いもよらず立つ舞台
お客さん達の視線
そこで僕はダンスから遠ざかっても毎日車庫で練習していたWORLDORDERのようなダンスを披露すると､見ていたお客さん達のあたたかな視線と笑顔そしてにぃのダンスを初めて見た彼女の笑顔
そのまま他の演者も皆最後に舞台上へ上がり大盛り上がりで皆でダンス……
何でもなかった最初で最後の海外が新しい人生の一歩に繋がり
もう普通の仕事には戻らないと見えるところ手の甲と耳の後ろの星､そして兼ねてから知り合いだった振り付け師airmanの杉谷さんからアキちゃん痛い奴じゃんと言われた……
首の後ろにその彼女の名前のタトゥー(今は首の後ろの十字架に塗りつぶされていますが……)
最初に入れたタトゥーはその三ヶ所でした
その声が
それまで遠ざかっていたダンスの仕事を始めるきっかけになり
それが元気さんとの出逢いに繋がり
彼女との別れと共に契約社員を続けながら
紅白歌合戦に出たりCMに出たり
でも契約社員を止め融通のきく新橋でのキッチンアルバイトにうつり
そこから何でもかんでももらったお仕事をしながらオーディションも全部受けどういう訳か
全部受かりいつしかお芝居よりもダンスの仕事が多くなり
それからWORLDORDER７人体勢に伴い声をかけられ僕とまぁ君が加わりWORLDORDER､CDデビューへ動き出す
初期はラーメン屋のバイトとアンナミラーズのキッチンそして友達のダンススクールで先生をやりながら……
いつしかそんなバイトも先生もやれなくなり
そしてマイクロソフトの世界大会
前年度レディガガに次いで2011年のオープニングを飾り国際的な舞台での様子がニュースに取り上げられメジャーへ……
それから今まで色々なこと波を越えて「髙」が生まれ
その時の彼女の声がなければ
自分はそのまま働きながらお芝居を続けていたかもしれません……
だから､ずっと……
安定ではなく､自分のやりたい事をにぃにはやっていてほしい
もし私のせいだったら別れると言っていた彼女
そんな声があったから
応援くださる皆さんと出逢い､WORLDORDERメンバーと出逢い「髙」メンバーと出逢いが……
だから､今の道を応援してくれていた彼女にはありがとうを言いたいです
そんな彼女も自分の道を見つけ
苦労しながらも
今は結婚し二人の子供のお母さんとしてあたたかな家庭を築いているようです……
母親同士の名前が一緒で友達でそこから始まった物語
これもまたもうひとつの【糸】の物語のようです……
まさかお付き合いするなんて思ってもいなかった幼馴染みの妹とのお付き合いから
ダンスへの道……
そしてWORLDORDERそしてお芝居への想いが紡いだ「髙」
彼女の声が想いが紡いでくれたかもしれない今
小さくて一瞬で､でも僕の今に繋がる声をくれた彼女に､幼馴染みの佐和にありがとう
これからもずっと幸せでありますように……
小さくでも大きな過去の一歩と
未来へつながる今の一歩
聴いてください
https://youtu.be/VI8zQG-yMMI?si=DZ9YZzYpGJyACgOD
小さなノンフィクションの物語でした｡
今日は「髙」の次の公演に向けて
また僕が変な会場の使い方を台本最後のページ図面で提示してきたので会場へキャパシティ含め下見へ……
退院以来初めての横浜の風を感じる瞬間
7月公演に向けて「髙」が送る風をメンバー皆で紡いでゆきます……
青春青春言っている痛い奴の声に耳を傾けてくださりありがとうございました
今週も火曜日水曜日とありがとうございました
今週も最後まで青春まっしぐらに
優しい風を紡ぎ生きてゆきましょう
それでは
また来週
強く優しくあたたかく
生きよう｡
にぃ
髙橋 昭博
Red thread: A small voice and a big step.
I felt like watching a movie for some reason before I went to bed last night.
I watched a movie [Ito] that I hadn’t seen in a long time.
[Thread] The main character is Ren Takahashi
Coincidentally, Takahashi’s heroine is Aoi Sonoda.
A movie that I watched as if it overlapped with my own memories, even though they weren’t supposed to overlap.
I guess it was the first movie I watched since being discharged from the hospital…
I watched the movie thinking that the two people who played this role were also connected by a red thread.
Such a meeting, parting, connection, and a heroic life in a role.
Each person has a story and a present.
I don’t know where or who I’m connected to by the red thread, whether I’ve met them, broken up with them, or whether I’m connected to them.
The vertical thread is you, the horizontal thread is me…
Those lyrics seem to have spun a thread between the two characters portrayed in this movie.
I think it was a different way of looking at the movie, but it was a movie that made me feel the way these two people met.
I thought it was interesting to see that kind of movie.
Looking back on the memories of my youth
Thinking about the youth I have now…
[Another thread]
A childhood friend of our brothers, a daughter of our mother’s friend (also named Junko), and a sister.
I live near Disneyland, and when I went to Disneyland for the first time as a child, I was with my childhood friends and family…
An older sister with short cut hair and a younger sister with a cute smile
I love my sister and am happy to see her every time, and even when she came to stay with me.
We met again for the first time in a while when I was in my late 20s at a pub in Shibuya, where the older sister was a career woman and the younger sister worked in sales at a company that sold Disney goods.
My younger brother was a manga artist, and I occasionally appeared in plays and worked as a contract employee.
Everyone is working their way through their own work.
Reunion after becoming an adult
Nostalgic faces, both older sister and younger sister have become more beautiful.
But when we talk, we’re still childhood friends just like we were back then.
Then, on the train home, everyone had their own plans, and I dropped off my drunk sister and took the train to the Disney station…
For some reason, she started crying when we broke up.
Did you have various problems…
Was the reunion after a long time a time when I was able to express myself for the first time in a while…
It feels like we won’t be able to meet again…
Tears from a girl I had only seen smiling
Take me home and say goodbye
After that, I started contacting her from time to time.
I never expected that we would be dating childhood friends, and moreover, I would be dating my younger sister instead of the older sister I liked when I was a child…
A future I never imagined
After that, we started seeing each other often after work.
But she mistakenly thinks that she is a strong drinker.
When I drink, I go missing
I once went to Shibuya by car with my brother and looked around Shibuya at dawn…
She gave up a lot of things for me
I don’t want you to work normally, I want you to do as much as you want to do.
It was the first time we each went overseas using tickets that we had already bought after we decided to break up.
We ate together over there and happened to stop by.
Rehearsal for a dance event held at the entrance on the first floor of the mall.
When I told the performer that I was dancing too, he seemed to be talking to the organizer about something, and the organizer asked me to come to the performance, so I went home the next day.
I was worried because it was far away from the hotel I was staying at.
Nii told me that I should go because I wanted to see her dance, so we met again and headed to the mall where the event was held.
(*Ever since I was little, I still call him Shin-chan every few years when I receive LINE, even though my older brother [Nii] Shinsuke is also older brother, Shinsuke is called Shin-chan…)
Then, as I was watching the lead actors dance, the host spoke into the microphone of a guest performer from Japan.
Hearing that voice, the dancers in the cast took my hand and headed to the stage…
A stage where music plays and you unexpectedly stand alone
Customers’ perspective
So I performed a WORLDORDER-like dance that I had been practicing every day in the garage even though I was no longer dancing, and the audience looked at me with warm eyes and smiles, and Nii’s smile as she saw me dance for the first time.
Just like that, all the other performers went on stage for the last time and everyone danced to great excitement…
My first and last trip abroad, which was nothing special, led to a new step in my life.
There are stars on the backs of her hands and behind her ears where she looks like she won’t be able to go back to her normal job, and the choreographer and airman Mr. Sugitani, who I’ve known for a long time, told me that Aki-chan was in pain…
Her name is tattooed on the back of her neck (it’s currently painted over as a cross on the back of her neck…)
The first tattoos I got were in those three places.
That voice
It gave me the opportunity to start working in dance, which I had been away from until then.
That led to my encounter with Genki-san.
While continuing to work as a contract employee after breaking up with my girlfriend.
Participating in Kohaku Uta Gassen and appearing in commercials
But I stopped working as a contract employee and took a part-time job in the flexible kitchen in Shinbashi.
Since then, I’ve been doing all the jobs I’ve been given, and for some reason I’ve been auditioning for everything.
I got accepted to all of them, and before I knew it, I started getting more dance work than acting.
Then, along with the 7 members of WORLDORDER, I was called out and Maa and I joined, and WORLDORDER started to make its CD debut.
In the early days, I worked part-time at a ramen shop, in the kitchen at Anna Miller’s, and as a teacher at a friend’s dance school…
Before I knew it, I couldn’t do that part-time job or be a teacher anymore.
and Microsoft’s world championships
Following Lady Gaga in the previous year, she opened the show in 2011 and her performance on the international stage was featured in the news and she became a major…
Since then, “Taka” was born after overcoming various waves.
Without her voice at that time
I might have continued acting while working…
So, forever…
I don’t want stability, I want Nii to do what she wants to do.
She said she would break up with me if it was my fault.
Because there was a voice like that
Meeting everyone who supports us, meeting WORLDORDER members, meeting “Taka” members
So I would like to thank her for supporting me on my current path.
She also found her own way
Despite the hardships
She is now married and the mother of two children, building a warm family…
The story started when the mothers had the same name and were friends.
This seems to be another [thread] story…
From my relationship with my childhood friend’s younger sister, whom I never thought I would date.
The road to dance…
And “Taka”, created by WORLDORDER and my passion for acting.
Now that her voice has spun it
I would like to thank my childhood friend Sawa for giving me a small, fleeting voice that connected me to where I am now.
I hope you will always be happy…
A small but big step in the past
A step towards the future
please listen
https://youtu.be/VI8zQG-yMMI?si=DZ9YZzYpGJyACgOD
It was a small non-fiction story.
Today we are preparing for the next performance of “Taka”
Also, I presented a strange way to use the venue in the drawings on the last page of the script, so I went to preview the venue, including its capacity…
The moment I felt the Yokohama breeze for the first time since being discharged from the hospital.
In preparation for the July performance, all members will weave the wind sent by “Taka”…
Thank you for listening to the voice of a hurting person who says youth and youth.
Thank you again this week for Tuesday and Wednesday.
This week is full of youth until the end
Let’s live by spinning a gentle breeze
Well then
See you next week
strong, gentle and warm
Let’s live.
Nii
Akihiro Takahashi
●お返事
きなこさん
「髙」のイベント・公演が決まりました！本日会場のセットや舞台装置確認へ
紺さん一さん含め三人で行って参りました。変わらない会場の空気、懐かしくそして次の公演の
これまでとは違う空間使用方法で、これまでとは違う空気も感じていただけるかと思います
三日には自分も驚きでした……書き始めるまではこれまでの様な集中力と組み立てる脳みそがあるのか不安でしたが
これまでよりも邪魔者が居なくなったぶん。驚異的な集中力を発揮してくれました……
そして映像、懐かしいですね……６人体制WORLDORDER
この日は皆さんと一緒に移動しながら撮影していたような感じで、周りの皆さんも撮影し放題
皆さんがカメラマンの様で……スタッフさんの数も普段のWORLDORDERの撮影とは違い
AKBの会社の方々だったので、新鮮でした……
もう１０年以上も前なのですね……
茶白猫この日の朝初めて見た猫でした……
ぴょんと跳ねた瞬間を撮れてラッキーでした！
猫ってやっぱりかわいいですね……
この一週間も猫ちゃん達と心あたたかな日々時間でありますように……
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