証 : A testament to my little brother’s life. The callus on my younger brother’s finger, which was large from constantly drawing manga, is getting smaller.

証 : 弟の人生の証
漫画を描き続け大きかった中指の先のペンだこが小さくなっています……

証 : A testament to my little brother’s life.
The callus on my younger brother’s finger, which was large from constantly drawing manga, is getting smaller.

祈り続け､見守り続け､寄り添い続け二ヶ月
日々目まぐるしく変わる弟の容体
穏やかな時もあれば急にどん底まで悪くなったり
日々闘い続ける弟の姿を見続け二ヶ月
ICUから一般病棟に移り更に急激に悪くなった日個室へ移され現在

体に繋がれた管は減ったり増えたりを繰り返し
90kgあったとは思えないほど筋肉が落ち
あからさまに細くなっていく見た目

苦しみながら闘いながら､救急搬送から丁度二ヶ月を迎えた昨日は
穏やかな呼吸を表情を感じさせてくれました

奥さんも僕も家族も寄り添い続け
日々植物状態でも感じる弟の日々の変化
ちょっとした表情の変化や体に現れる症状で
何かが起きているのか辛いのか色々と感じる事が増えました

目が思いきり開いていたり瞬きも口の動きも
何か伝えたそうに感じたり

でも起きているのか寝ているのかわからず
手を握っていても足をさすっていても
手足のリハビリしていても､汗を脱ぐってあげたり
目蓋に固まった目やにを取ってあげても
嫌なのか嫌じゃないのかわからず
それだけでもわかればそっとしておいてあげることも出来るけど

思いを伝えられない状態でも
そんな弟の気持ちをわかってあげられたら良いのにと思ったり

何でもやってあげたいし助けてあげたい

色々な機械の見方もわかってきて
数字を通して弟の容体を感じたり
数字と呼吸と表情で弟の闘いを感じたり

長い間闘う弟

でもいつか必ずを信じ毎日祈りに神社へ向かい神棚で祈りいつ何処に居ても弟を感じ祈り少しでも弟のためになればと闘い描き
レッスンも本領発揮とまでは行かずとも復帰し
自転車も許可を得ていないけど
弟の病院までのスピードを意識し乗り始め
川沿いの病院を目指す日々

病院が見えれば弟の闘う息づかいを影を感じ
弟に急速なリハビリをさせてもらい
自分は毎日規則正しく忙しく生きさせてもらっています

だから弟にありがとう
毎日闘い続けてくれてありがとう

これからも世界中からのあたたかな祈りを届け
信じ祈り寄り添い家族で生きてまいります

一ヶ月が過ぎまた一ヶ月､二ヶ月目の病院での弟の闘いを様子をあったことを弟にLINEで送り続けています……
心に届けばと思い……
そんな二ヶ月目の弟の闘いの日々を感じてください……

そしてこの先も祈りをください
よろしくお願いいたします｡

【伸輔の病院での闘いの日々·二ヶ月目】

10月8日水曜日一般病棟二日目
入院二ヶ月目の最初の一日
一般病棟二日目､少しは心落ち着いたのか……
今日は病室へ入った時の伸輔の寝相の悪さに驚きました……
片足ベッドから足れていて
病棟からおばあちゃんや俺みたいに脱走しようとしたのかと思った
外の景色や外の空気が恋しくなる気持ちいしきがなくても同じ血の家族……
ものすごくわかる……
窓の無い部屋だと特に外の景色が恋しくなる
自分も入院中大きな窓から外ばかり見ていました……
入院中伸輔と奥さんが一緒に面会に来てくれた後､入り口まで送りながら一緒に外に出たかった……
今でもあの日の伸輔の手を振り振り返った顔と後ろ姿を思い出す……
今日はいっぱい伸輔の動く姿や表情を感じられました

今日はまさかの病院で働く懐かしい人や大切な方々が会いに来てくれました
そして伸輔の為に心から寄り添って助けてくれるようです｡
伸輔と奥さんが繋いだ円
伸輔夫婦にとって良い風吹いた一日になったと良いなと思います｡
今日も精一杯生きた一生懸命生きた伸輔
ゆっくり落ち着いて呼吸して焦らず一歩一歩
明日も兄弟·夫婦·家族みんなであたたかな一歩にしような!
伸輔今日もありがとうお疲れさま
ゆっくり休んで優しい夜でありますように……

10月09日木曜日一般病棟三日目
今日は､台風が横を通過する影響で風が強い一日
神社へのお詣りの際も強い風を感じた朝
雲の多い朝
今日も手水舎の竜神様も狛犬様も神社の神様も
も皆風を感じ心地よさそうに微笑んでいました
伸輔の事を祈り家族の健康を祈り祈りをくださる皆様の事を祈り帰宅
今日は病院ではリハビリの先生にリハビリを
教わりました
指そして手首､腕､関節､肩､脇､リハビリをしている際伸輔はあくびをしたり痙攣したり
痛いのか心地よいのか
表情を見ながら感じながらのリハビリ
奥さんが先生と一緒にリハビリをすると嬉しそうに落ち着いた表情に感じた伸輔
奥さんは伸輔の顔をさっぱり整えてあげ
自分は今日も足をマッサージさせてもらい､乾燥している足を温かいタオルで拭かせてもらいました
さっぱりした伸輔は心地よさそうに、眠っていました
今日も伸輔にとっても家族にとっても一歩
伸輔が心地よく一歩を踏み出せるように
寄り添う時間
また明日一緒に一歩進んでいこうね!
今日も頑張ったね!

10月10日金曜日一般病棟四日目
昨夜急激に寒くなった空気が残る朝
今日も神社へ祈りに行くと昨日の風が落とした銀杏の実が沢山芝の上に転がり独特の匂いを放っていました
樹々も色が抜け秋色に変わり始めたこの頃
伸輔にも心地よい秋の風空気を感じさせてあげたい
今日は少し早めに病院へ
さっそく昨日教わったリハビリをしてあげると
やはりあくびをしたり体を動かしたり震わせたり
顔を拭いてやり､さっぱりさせてあげました
僕と父が帰った後は奥さんが来て今日久々に頭を洗ってあげるようで
きっと気持ち良い表情しているんだろうな
今日熱も6℃台で落ち着いているようで安心しました
さっぱりしたらまた落ち着いて穏やかな夜を過ごせるかな
今日も伸輔は忙しい日々だと思いますが
家族と過ごす僅かな時間を
めいいっぱい感じてくれていると良いな
伸輔病院内は温かく汗かきには辛いかもだけど
汗かいたら家族で気持ち良く拭いてあげるから
日に日に筋肉が落ち痩せていく弟の姿
今日も良く頑張ったね
優しい夜でありますように……
ありがとう伸輔

10月11日土曜日冷たい雨の一日
小雨ぱらつく朝､雨の日枝神社へ祈りに
雨粒纏った神社の空気はまた優しく感じます
手水舎の竜神様も緑の芝も苔を纏った樹々も
狛犬様も神社の神様もいつもより優しく感じます
今日も伸輔の事､家族の事を祈り帰り道で父と逢い入れ違いで神社へ
今日は一日中冷たい雨の一日
伸輔の元へ､今日は苦しそうな息づかいで二度タンを吸引してもらいようやく落ち着いた様子
手足をリハビリしマッサージしてあげ､温かなタオルをお借りし､顔をサッパリ拭いてあげ､手足も拭いてあげ奥さん達と入れ替わり
苦しそうな息づかいだった伸輔
明日は落ち着いていますように
今日も苦しかったろうけど良く頑張ったね
明日は穏やかで優しい日曜日になりますように……

10月12日日曜日
今日はギリギリまで伸輔
描きたい絵を描き完成させてバタバタしたまま伸輔の元へ
今朝は神社の入り口で父と逢い入れ違いで神社へ
雨の跡の残る神社は銀杏の実の匂いが溢れていました
今日も神様達は優しく微笑みをくれ優しい風を感じさせてくれました
午後伸輔の元へ奥さんと入れ替わりで､先生に聞いたお話しを奥さんから聞き､伸輔の元へ
伸輔は今日も苦しそうな息づかい
一通りリハビリとマッサージ､涙や顔を綺麗に拭いてあげ
看護師さんに改めて先生のお話しを聞きました
伸輔は筋肉が無くなり肺にも水が､それで苦しそうにしているようで
今日はその後オムツや服を変えていただき
寝姿勢を変えていただき
タンを吸引してもらい､少し落ち着いた呼吸に
良くなったと思えばまた何かしらあり
日々苦しみながら闘う伸輔
今日も苦しかったろうけど良く頑張ったね
安心して
優しい夜でありますように……
また明日ね
一緒に頑張ろうな!

10月13日
伸輔
今日は祝日だったよ
雲が多い空朝一時雨が降ったけどその後は青空も覗いていたよ!
今日もお父さんと入れ違いで神社最近毎日会うよ(笑)
今日は奥さんと入れ違いで伸輔の元へ
今日も呼吸が早く苦しそうだったけど
寝姿勢を変えてもらって､オムツ変えてもらって､再度の痰吸引してもらったら落ち着いたようでした
疲れたね……頑張ったね
世間は祝日だったけど伸輔は毎日休みなしで頑張っているね……
俺ももっともっと頑張らなきゃだ……
今週からレッスンも復活するし
俺も伸輔と同じように一歩踏み出すよ!
丁度面会時間レッスン時間だから逢えなくて心配だけど
お父さんに伸輔の事教えてもらうね!
一緒に日々一歩新しい一週間も一緒に頑張ろうね!!
今日も疲れたと思う
今日もこの後は優しい夜でありますように……

10月14日火曜日
今日も頑張っていたね
肺や内蔵の調子が悪く息苦しいよね
でも一生懸命呼吸して精一杯生きてるね!
奥さんにに髭も整えてもらったり
今日もいい顔していたけど
やっぱり家族は伸輔の苦しそうな姿可哀想でしょうがなく感じてしまう
俺も変わってあげたい
お母さんも毎日神棚に向かって何度も何度も声を出して伸輔が帰ってくるように神様におじいちゃんおばあちゃんにおねがいしているよ
明日は消化器の診察があったりまた疲れてしまいそうだけど
傍に奥さんも家族も居るからね……
一緒に頑張ろうね!
今日は行った時手術着もはだけてお腹も足も丸出しで足も片足落ちていたから……
隠してあげたけど､だいぶ動いたようだね……
奥さんにに着いて行きたくて仕方なかったのかな……
その後も痙攣したりゴロゴロしたり落ち着かなかったけど
夜はゆっくり落ち着いて呼吸が出来ますように……
身体の中が弱って苦しいことばかりだけど
大丈夫｡伸輔ならどんな苦しいことも乗り越えられるよ!
だって最高の奥さんと家族がついているし仲間もファンの方々も応援そして祈り続けてくれているから……
伸輔は一人じゃないからね
みんなで今を乗り越えて行こうね!
今日も頑張ったね!
優しい夜でありますように……

10月15日水曜日曇り空後雨
今日は曇り空の肌寒い一日だったけど
帰り頃雨が降り始め今も外の世界は雨音が響いているよ……
帰りはお父さんと別れて帰る時びしょ濡れで帰ったよ……
伸輔､今日はお姉ちゃんも来てくれて良かったね……
でもやっぱりまだ呼吸は苦しそうで呼吸数は高かったね……
身体の中でめいいっぱい闘っているんだね……
苦しいことばかりつづいて大変だけど
伸輔はいつも最後は勝つからね
伸輔の頑張りを家族みんなで応援してるし信じてるしずっと祈ってるよ!
今日の先生のお話しは苦しいお話しだったけど
奥さんも怖い思いしながら苦しみながらも伸輔の強さを信じて伸輔と同じように歯くいしばって闘ってるよ
家族みんな伸輔と一緒に闘ってるよ
だからみんなの事も信じて自分の闘いに集中して元気な身体取り戻そう!
挫けそうなら俺の首から下全部あげるから!

今辛い時期だけどみんなついてるから
自分の身体を信じて思いきり闘ってくださいね
いつも伸輔の心の中で一緒に闘ってるからね!
一人じゃないからね大丈夫だよ

頑張ってるね
ずっと逢いたがってるお母さん金曜日に連れて行くからね
伸輔今日も良く頑張ったね
優しく強くあたたかく生きようね
今日も疲れたよね
ゆっくり落ち着いて呼吸して
優しい夜になりますように……

10月16日木曜日
今日の占い､おひつじ座1位だったよ!
俺はあまり占い気にして見てなかったけれど､伸輔の星座を見るようになっておひつじ座の占い順位が気になるようになってしまって毎朝確認するようになったよ!(笑)

自分の星座はどうでもいいんだけど､おひつじ座が良いと嬉しくてね……

今日は雨が降ったりやんだり忙しい空の一日
空気も冷たく感じる木曜日です

今日は一人早めに行って伸びてる爪だけ整えさせてもらったよ
お母さんとマッサージさせてもらって

今日は伸輔息遣いが落ち着いているように感じたけど
呼吸数は忙しそうだったね……
でも痰を吸引してもらった後なのか俺がいる間は
穏やかな伸輔を感じられました

今日も頑張っていたね
毎日精一杯頑張っている伸輔
家族みんな伸輔の強さを信じて見守っているよ

今日も精一杯お疲れさま
夜はゆっくり落ち着いて呼吸して

今日も優しい夜でありますように🍀

明日はお母さん車椅子で一緒に行くからね
逢えるの楽しみにしていてね

大丈夫だよ伸輔
伸輔は強いからね
また明日ね……

10月17日金曜日
今日も頑張っていたね!
ありがとう
今日はお母さんが久しぶりに伸輔に逢えるからって出発前からそわそわして庭で日向ぼっこしながら行くのを待っていたよ
緊張するって……ずっと逢いたくてでも中々逢いに行けなくて
家で鶴折りながら伸輔の名前を呼んではおじいちゃんおばあちゃんに祈り
今日やっと逢えて嬉しそうだったし安心した様子でした……

奥さんやお母さんとももっとお話ししたかったみたいだけど
今度お家でごはん食べながらおしゃべりするって言ってました

伸輔も来たいよね……
でも今は安心して自分の闘いに集中してください

お母さんは伸輔の手を握りずっと嬉しそうだったし祈っていたよ

頑張っているねって……
元気になったらお母さんに甘えてくださいね!

今日も熱は7℃を行ったり来たりだったみたいね痰は落ち着いていると看護師さんも言っていました……

この後も夜も落ち着いて呼吸して
身体の痛みや苦しみと闘って３カウント取ってゴングを鳴らしてくださいね!

今日はお母さんに逢えて良かったね

奥さんと伸輔とお母さんが揃った姿
何だか微笑ましく懐かしかった

伸輔今日もありがとう
優しい夜でありますように

10月18日19日土曜日から自分も一歩踏み出した日曜日
伸輔､昨日は身体冷やしてもらっていたね!
熱はそこまでようだったけど
身体の中で精一杯闘っていたんだね!
汗と痙攣が止まらない様子で一生懸命闘っているんだなって感じました……
今日は伸輔と同じように自分も一歩踏み出してみました……
自転車に乗れないからスタジオまでは乗り継ぎ乗り継ぎと徒歩で遠かったけれど
久々の自分の脳みそに気を遣いながらのレッスンは疲れました
もっと動けるけど控えめにしないとだからね……
でも､伸輔も頑張っているからと思えば俺も頑張れます
ありがとうね!

今日逢いに行けず､明日も病院からの病院で行けるか微妙だけど
俺も頑張るからね
伸輔も一緒に心の中で助け合いながら生きようね!

今日も頑張っていたんだろうな
今週も精一杯の一週間本当に良く頑張ったね

奥さんもお母さんも実家のお母さんもお父さんもみんな伸輔に寄り添いながら一生懸命生きてるよ

伸輔の新しい一週間も
優しい風感じて､あたたかな一歩を踏み出せるよう
みんなであたたかく生きようね

伸輔今週もお疲れ様でした
優しい夜でありますように

10月20日月曜日
新しい一週間の始まりだね!
昨日は小金丸さんが来てくださったんだね
ずっと伸輔の事ICUの外から祈ってくださり
また伸輔に逢いにICUへ入る際はパワーを届けてくださいと
手を強く握りパワーをくださっていた小金丸さん
伸輔も逢えて直接パワー貰えて嬉しかったかな
本当は元気な姿で逢いたかったよね
今日は朝から鹿島田の病院まで診察と処方薬を
処方していただきに行きました
お父さんお母さんも病院で今日はみんな病院の一日
伸輔に逢いに行きたかったけれどごめんね
しぃちゃんから聞いたね
俺も今週もまた一歩頑張るからね!
なので今日は一度帰宅してから神社へ
今日は重たい雲に覆われた時折雨粒こぼれる一日
今日は空気も冷たくなりました
伸輔は今日も汗かきながら身体の中で闘っていたんだよね!
頑張っているね
俺も汗かき頑張るから
一緒に今週もあたたかく生きようね!
またすぐ逢いに行くからね!
待っていてね
今日も良く頑張ったね
優しい雨音響く夜､落ち着いて呼吸して､優しい夜でありますように……

10月21日火曜日一気に冷たい空気に包まれた一日
伸輔
今日は呼吸がいつもより落ち着いて頑張っていたね!
口がパクパク話しているように動いていて
まばたきもしていてお父さんは伸輔が何か言いたいんじゃないかって嬉しそうにしていたよ……
今日は外の空気は物凄く冷たくなって
夏の気配も全く無い冷たい一日だよ
神社はすっかり銀杏の匂いに包まれているかと思いきや金木犀の良い香りも漂っていて
不思議な感じです……
病院前の川沿いは冷たい空気に包まれて
魚が石投げみたいに川面を何度も跳ねていたよ
川鵜は川面をかけ羽ばたき雲に覆われた空高く気持ち良さそうに飛んでいました
俺も伸輔もこんな魚や鳥のように冷たい空気に負けず元気に跳ねて飛び回りたいね!
伸輔は今日は汗が落ち着いていたね……
痙攣はまだあるけど､今日も負けないように精一杯生きていたね!
今日も友人が来てくださっていて
伸輔も心あたたかくなってるんだろうな……
良かったね!
今日もめいいっぱい精一杯で疲れたよね……
この後もゆっくり落ち着いて呼吸して
穏やかであたたかな優しい夜でありますように……
今日もありがとうね
また明日ね……

10月22日冷たい空気に包まれた雨の水曜日
伸輔
今日も身体の中で高熱と高熱の際くる関節の痛みと闘い
精一杯生きていたんだね
奥さんから聞きました!
検査の結果は悪くはなかったけれど
原因不明の熱がどこから来ているか……
早く痛みも辛さもなく落ち着いて呼吸出来ると良いね
奥さんも家族もみんなで祈っているから焦らずみんなで闘おうね!

今日はシャワーも浴びて髭も整えてもらって
さっぱり良い男になっていたよ!

呼吸も落ち着いているように数値では感じる瞬間もあったけど
不安定になる瞬間もあって……

苦しさ同様､波があるようだね……

今日の外の世界は
一気に冷たい空気になり
冷たい冬のような寒さの雨の一日です

伸輔はあたたかくして落ち着いて呼吸して
身体の中の悪さする奴と向き合ってください
落ち着いて!伸輔なら大丈夫だよ
みんな祈っているし
みんながついているからね!

どうか
優しい夜になりますように……

10月23日木曜日
伸輔
今日は朝は昨日の冷たい空気が残って寒かったけれど､日中は少しだけど気温が上がって
雲が居る空だけど青空と陽射しが覗いていたよ!
朝の神社は今日も金木犀と銀杏の実の香りで秋を感じさせました……
手水舎の竜神様も狛犬様達も少し寒そうに感じました……

今日の病院前の川は異常に感じるくらい魚があっちこっちで跳び跳ねていて
どうしたんだろうって言う感じでした……

伸輔も跳び跳ねてるかなと思っていたけど
今日も一生懸命呼吸をして頑張っていたね!

額には汗が浮き身体中冷やしてもらっていたようだね!
でも昨日より心なしか落ち着いている表情に感じました

痙攣も体の中の苦しさも辛いけれど
少しでも早く痛みも辛さも解消されて
伸輔が落ち着いて呼吸をし体の中の悪者を退治するための熱も落ち着きますように……

みんなで祈っています🍀

今日も一生懸命､精一杯頑張っていたね
本当にお疲れさま……
この後の夜の時間､伸輔にとって優しい夜の時間になりますように🍀

今日もありがとう伸輔

10月24日金曜日
伸輔
今日は曇り空の一日かと思ったら､雨が降り出し結局雨の一日
今日も冷たい空気の一日です

今朝も銀杏の実が転がり金木犀の香りに満ちた日枝神社でお祈り

手水舎の竜神様も今日は少し肌寒そうに見えたけれど伸輔の熱が下がるように竜神様に水浴びさせてあげました

毎回伸輔が苦しんでいる箇所を竜神様に水をかけてお祈りしています

伸輔は今日は痙攣も落ち着いて呼吸も安定しているかと思ったけど､熱はかなり高くて
身体の中でめいいっぱい精一杯闘っているんだね

悪い部分が不明のまま色々検査して悪い部分を探してくれているようだね……

伸輔の中で何が起こっているのか早く見つかって落ち着くと良いな……

みんなついているから安心してね大丈夫
絶対伸輔は勝つからね!

そして今日は秋田書店の方々が来てくださって
伸輔の為に動いてくれるようで
みんな伸輔が繋げた紡いできた縁がみんな伸輔を助けてくれて

本当に伸輔は凄いね!

俺も伸輔に届くよう喜んでくれるよういつになるかまだわからないけどWORLD ORDERの作品にまた出演するからね

俺も頑張るからね
伸輔と一緒に一歩一歩歩んでいるよ

雨の夜
今日も闘いお疲れさま
熱が落ち着き穏やかに呼吸出来る
優しい夜になりますように……🍀

今日もありがとう伸輔

10月25日土曜日
伸輔
今日も冷たい雨の一日だったよ
伸輔は今日も穏やかに見えたし呼吸も落ち着いていたけど
口の痙攣と熱がやっぱり高かったようで
冷やしてもらっていたね……

しぃちゃんとお母さんが冷やしてあげる為に保冷剤持ってきてくれていて
手を冷やしてくれていたね!

みんな伸輔の傍にいるから
安心して熱と闘ってね

原因がわからないから色々と検査してくれているようだけど
色々と身体の中の異常は減っているようだけど

今は熱が大敵だね
俺も心の中でいつも伸輔に寄り添い想い一緒だから

あたたかく頑張ろうね!
今日も竜神様に水浴びさせたけど
熱はまだ下がらなくて辛いと思うけど
大丈夫だよ伸輔はどんな敵にも勝てるからね!

検査や熱との闘いで疲れていると思います
どうか夜は心落ち着く優しい時間でありますように……

今日も良く頑張ったね
明日は俺はダンスで行けないけど

またすぐに逢いに行くから
一緒に頑張ろうね!!

落ち着いて呼吸してね……🍀

10月26日日曜日
伸輔
今日も良く頑張ったね!
今週は熱との戦いの日々
苦しかったよね……
まだ原因はわからず､検査の日々と思います
毎日忙しいし辛いと思うけど
来週はそんな辛い熱も落ち着いて､伸輔が､少しでも落ち着いて過ごせる日々になれば良いなと思います……

今日はダンスで逢いに行けなかったけれど
明日はまたお父さんと逢いに行くからね!

俺もまだ万全ではないけれど
精一杯生きてるよ
伸輔も一緒にあたたかく生きようね!

今日は朝の7時から福田さんに投票しに行ってきたよ!
伸輔も行きたかったね……

今日も冷たい雨の一日だったけれど
来週は伸輔の闘い含め青空が覗くと良いね!

今週も一週間良く頑張ったね
お疲れさまでした
新しい一週間も一緒に頑張ろうね!

今日の夜も伸輔が落ち着いて呼吸出来ますように
優しい夜でありますように

10月27日月曜日
新しい一週間の始まりは久々に気持ち良く晴れて
陽射しの暑さを感じたよ
伸輔は今日も熱が高くなったり落ち着いたり不安定だったみたいだね
看護師さんもお母さんも伸輔の熱を冷まそうと冷やしてくれていたね……
伸輔は口と足の痙攣が止まらない様子だったね
頑張って闘っていたね
自分は今日は爪を整えてあげようと爪切りや爪ヤスリを持っていって
綺麗にできて良かったです……

気持ち良くは晴れた新しい一週間の始まりの月曜日
自分もまた一歩進み自転車に乗ってみました
久々の自転車はとても早く感じ
目に入ってくる情報量と瞬発力に脳みそ大丈夫かなと思ったけれど

安全運転で自分の脳と闘ってみました
怖くても一歩踏み出してみないとだからね

伸輔も毎日精一杯闘っているから自分も闘わねば……
新しい一週間､伸輔の熱が落ち着き辛さがなくなり
穏やかに呼吸出来ますように……

新しい一週間もあたたかく生きようね
明日は今日買ったサーキュレーター持っていくからね……

みんなで今週も頑張ろうね!

10月28日火曜日
伸輔
今日は熱が少し落ち着いていたようだけど､まだ不安定で微熱が上がったり下がったりを繰り返していたようだね……
でも少しだけど高熱ではなくなり､冷やすのもそこまでではなくて良くなったみたいだね……
逢いに行った時は､額に汗が浮いていてまだ高熱と闘っているのかなって思ったけど
少しでも伸輔が楽になったなら良かったけど
安心は出来なよね……
でもここまで良く闘ったね!
今日も空は気持ち良く晴れて日中は陽射しが暖かかったよ……
風は涼しく秋の風を感じたし
伸輔にも感じさせてあげたいよ……

今日は自分もまた一歩夕方に自転車で鶴見川まで行ってみました……
まだ怖いし目に映る情報量とスピードに脳が､ついていけてない感覚はあるから安全運転だけどね……

自転車に乗れるようになれば東部病院までの距離も短くなるし
遠回りしなくても良くなりそうだから……

それにしても今日の鶴見川の夕空は手術前から二ヶ月ぶりくらいだけどやっぱり大きく鮮やかに感じたよ

伸輔にも見せたくて撮りに行ってみました

伸輔新しい一週間は始まったばかり
今週も焦らず一歩ずつゆっくりでもあたたかく穏やかに
進んで行こうね!

今日も頑張ったね
この後もゆっくり落ち着いて呼吸して優しい夜になりますように

今日もありがとう

10月29日水曜日
伸輔
今日は苦しかったね
それでも一生懸命頑張ったね
色々と身体の中で起こっていることで
苦しい事があれこれ起こって
辛いよね
今日は血圧が下がってしまい
どうすることも出来なかったようだけど
何とか頑張ってお薬の力を借りてまだ不安定でも良く戻したね!
家族がみんな揃って伸輔が逢わせてくれたんだね……
みんな涙ぽろぽろだったけど心配しないでね
みんないつでも伸輔の傍にいるからね!
俺もまだ禁止されていても自転車飛ばして逢いに行ったよ
何も自分の方は怖くなかったそれよりも伸輔に早く逢いに行きたかったから……
俺の一歩を後押ししてくれてありがとう
いつも伸輔に心支えてもらっていて……
何もお返しできずごめんね
これからは一生伸輔のためにおどり伸輔のためにお芝居を創り伸輔のために描き伸輔に送り続けるからね!
感じてくださいね!
今日の夕暮れの空は鮮やかで伸輔にも届けたかったよ……
伸輔何とか呼吸も血圧も落ち着いてまた復活して兄弟揃って奇跡を起こし続けようね!
生きようね!

今日もありがとう
明日また伸輔に逢いに行くからね
負けないで一緒に闘い落ち着いたら一息ついて大切な奥さんの心に寄り添ってあげてね

どうか奥さんと二人
優しい夜でありますように🍀

10月30日木曜日
伸輔
昨日の苦しい闘いから今日はお薬を使っているからとは言え少しでも落ち着いて穏やかな呼吸と寝顔を感じられて一つ安心しました……
伸輔の呼吸温かな手足､お腹､胸の息遣いする動き
感じることが出来ました

昨日はしぃちゃんと久々にゆっくり二人で過ごせて良かったね

昨日も今日も小金丸さんがいらしてくれて､今日は秋田書店の方もピエロマンの本田さんも来てくださり
そしてお姉さんもきてくださり

みんな伸輔に会いに来てくれて
あたたかな時間を過ごせたね

伸輔が苦しい山を越え頑張ったからだね!

お父さんお母さんも伸輔の様子を知ってホッとした様子でした……

苦しい闘いは度々起こるかもだけど
いつもみんな伸輔の心に寄り添っているからね

今日もあれこれ検査や苦しい瞬間もあっただろうけど
みんなに穏やかな姿感じさせてくれてありがとう

頑張り闘う伸輔の姿は自分の誇りです
最高の弟です

今日もありがとう
どうか優しい夜になりますように🍀

10月31日金曜日
伸輔
今日も懐かしい声が聴こえたかな……
中高と伸輔と沢山の思い出を共にした友達が会いに来てくれたね!
思い出やこれからを語り合えたかな……
今日もまた一歩薬の量を減らせるまで頑張ったね
体の中の具合も悪くはないようで､血液検査の結果も悪くはないようで
凄いなとまた感じさせられました……
今日も穏やかな伸輔の息遣いそして表情を感じられて良かったよ
お母さんもホッとした様子でした
伸輔の手も足もあたたかく瞳も優しく
高い山を越え一時心落ち着けたと良いなと思います……

これからも苦しい瞬間はあれどいつもしぃちゃんやお母さん､そして俺もお父さんお母さんも､仲間達もみんな伸輔の傍で寄り添っているからね

焦らず安心して一歩一歩闘い良くなっていこうね

今日も頑張ったね
外は雨が時おり激しく降っています
どうか一息ついて落ち着いて呼吸して

穏やかで優しい夜でありますように🍀

今日もありがとうね伸輔

11月01日土曜日
伸輔
今日も昨日に続き友達が次から次と伸輔に会いに来てくれたね!
ロッテオリオンズのキャップ伸輔似合っていたね!!
素敵なプレゼントも貰って高校時代の友達とも会えて
今日はまた懐かしい話で盛り上がったかな

みんな伸輔を愛してくれて幸せだね!

今日もまた血圧のお薬少しずつ減らしてもらえて､伸輔の頑張りの成果だね……
でも無理だけは絶対しないで一歩一歩焦らず闘おうね!

今日は手足がむくんでいたけど平気かな……
苦しい時は落ち着いて呼吸して落ち着けてくださいね……

明日はダンスレッスンの後伸輔に逢いに行けるか挑戦してみます🚲

今日も大勢のお友達と合って少し疲れたかな
夜はまた落ち着いて穏やかな時間でありますように

優しい夜でありますように🍀

今日も逢えて伸輔の表情､呼吸を感じられて嬉しかったよ

ありがとうね

11月02日日曜日
伸輔
今週は苦しかったね
でも今日には薬の量も減り少しは穏やかに落ち着いて呼吸が出来ていたんだと良いな……
苦しかった一週間が過ぎまた落ち着いて一歩一歩明日へ進んでいけたら良いね👣

今日は稲毛神社を通り過ぎ外から祈り
その後止め神社を通り外から祈り
さっきも伝えたけれど池上本門寺に寄りレッスン前にプロレスの神様力道山に伸輔の事祈らせてもらったよ!

プロレスを愛する伸輔の心強い味方になってくれると思うよ!

そしてレッスン後自転車を思いきりこいで
伸輔に逢いに行けて良かったよ!!

しぃちゃんにも逢えて伸輔にも逢えて
最高の夫婦に逢えて家族の会に逢えて良かった
ダンスレッスンより汗かいたけど(笑)

少しでも伸輔のあたたかさ呼吸を感じられて良かったよ

家までの帰り川沿いから見た夕暮れの空は物凄く素敵で鮮やかだったから送ります

新しい一週間はこんな風に伸輔にとって心､体､頭の中､全部が
色鮮やかな空のような
優しい一週間でありますように🍀

今週も頑張ったね
ありがとう伸輔

この後も優しい夜でありますように……

11月03日祝日月曜日
伸輔
今日は汗が止まらず､呼吸も苦しそうで安定せず苦しそうだったね
伸輔の表情を見ていると､悔しくて歯をくいしばって涙を浮かべているように見えて
戻ろうと頑張っているのに
戻れずに悔しそうにしているように感じて
俺も悔しくて苦しかった……

こんなに頑張っているんだからきっと何か素敵なことが起こるはず

だから焦らないで落ち着いて今は我慢し踏ん張ろう
俺も一緒に踏ん張るから

だから焦らないで一歩一歩だよ

今日は夏のような雲と風が強い祝日文化の日だよ

明日からまた平日に戻るけど
今週もあたたかな気持ちで今と向き合い焦らず生きていこうね

今日は伸輔の優しい瞳感じられてみんな嬉しかったと思うよ

ありがとうね伸輔

この後も落ち着いて一息一息
穏やかな夜になりますように

優しい夜でありますように……🍀

11月04日火曜日
伸輔
今日は素敵な仲間や友達が来てくださって良かったね
懐かしい時間や顔を思い出して良い時間になったかな
昨日の苦しい時間を越え今日も少し苦しそうな呼吸も表情もあったし､手足もむくんで辛そうだったけど
一歩ずつ良くなっていくと良いね……
今日は自分は少しだけだったけど伸輔を感じられました
少しだけど話せて良かったよ
ありがとうね

今日も頑張って呼吸して頑張って生きていたね

今日は今年一番の冷たい朝だったようだよ
確かに日枝神社の神様達も少し冷たいなぁって表情に感じました
でもみんな伸輔の事見守ってくださるって助けてくださるって言っていたように感じました

苦しい日々辛い日々だけど
みんな伸輔の心に傍に寄り添っているからね

焦らず落ち着いて一歩一歩だよ

俺もバタバタしながらだけど一緒に頑張っているよ

伸輔がいるから頑張れる
だからありがとうね

今日も心疲れたかもだけど
落ち着いてあたたかくして優しい夜でありますように🍀

今日もありがとう伸輔
また明日ね

11月05日水曜日
伸輔
今日はおひつじ座一位だったよ!
そして今日は呼吸が少し落ち着いていたようで良かった……

穏やかな表情で､落ち着いた呼吸でオシッコも出たようで
少し安心しました

知り合いの方と落ち着いてお話しできたかな……
むくみも少し落ち着いて占い通り伸輔が苦しくなく優しい一日だったと良いなと思います

波はあれど一つ一つ越え一緒に闘って生きようね!

今日は伸輔の口の動きが「俺生きるから」って言っているように見えて何だか凄く嬉しかったよ

伸輔は毎日闘い休む間は無いかもだけど
しぃちゃんと二人の時は安心して一緒に休んでくださいね

今日もありがとう
この後も優しい時間､優しい夜でありますように🍀

11月06日木曜日
伸輔
今日はまた一歩穏やかに見えました
伸輔の呼吸や表情､目や口の動き
本当に良く頑張っているなと感じます

今日も自転車で伸輔の元へ
雨がない日はいつでもすぐに伸輔の元へ駆けつけられるから
先生の許可が無くても関係なく
伸輔に早く逢えるから嬉しいよ!

今日は伸輔の卒業アルバム初めて見たよ……
見られたくないかもだけど
しぃちゃんもお母さんも若い頃の伸輔を微笑ましく見ていたよ!

今週も時間が過ぎるのが早くあっという間に週末

外は日に日に冷たくなるけれど
伸輔はあたたかくして
焦らず明日も一息一息一歩一歩
一緒に進んでいこうね……

今日も頑張り疲れたと思います
夜は穏やかで優しい時間になりますように

今日もありがとう
優しくあたたかな風が伸輔の心そして体､頭をそっと包み穏やかなん時間をくれますように🍀

また明日ね……

11月07日金曜日
伸輔
今日面会に来てくださった現在新潮社の佐野さんのお話しを聞いて
改めて伸輔は凄かったんだと感じさせられたよ……
凄いんだとは思っていたし自慢していたけど
それだけじゃなく漫画家会でも伸輔は凄かったんだと思わされ
伸輔の凄さを誉められ凄く嬉しかったし泣きそうだった……

帰ってお母さんに話したら嬉しそうだったよ
伸輔の陰での努力をめいいっぱい感じさせられた一日だったよ

ありがとう

いつ外の世界に戻っても伸輔にはお仕事があるから
安心して

今日はいっぱい動きがあって
伸輔の穏やかな呼吸も
体の動きもあくびも目の動きも
めいいっぱい生きてきた証を感じました

伸輔凄いよ一生俺の自慢です

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これまで生きてきた足跡も
これからも

今日も疲れたと思う
ゆっくり焦らず一息一息一歩一歩だよ
どうか穏やかな夜でありますように

優しい週末の夜でありますように🍀

11月08日土曜日
伸輔
今日は行った時片足ベッドから降りようとしていたね
伸輔股関節柔らかいなと思ったよ
今日もリハビリした時足の力が入っていたけど
細くなっていっても伸輔の力強さ意思を感じました
あくびもしていたし､しぃちゃんと歌っていたね!

また伸輔の上手な歌声が聴きたくなりました
早く戻りたいだろうけど
で焦ったら絶対ダメだよ!
落ち着いて一歩一歩一息一息だよ!
伸輔なら戻ってもまたすぐやりたいこと全部出来るから
今は落ち着いて体の頭休めてあげてください

川にはいつの間にかカモメも戻って来て気持ち良さそうに羽ばたいているよ
いつかまた一緒に羽ばたけるように今は無理しないで一歩ずつ進んでいこうね!

伸輔の落ち着く実家の二階のトイレを送っておきます(笑)

ぺんだこも小さくなったけど
また戻ったらいっぱいお仕事みんなが用意してくれるからね
大丈夫｡

今週もあと一日
精一杯闘った今週も明日だけ
明日は俺レッスンで逢いに行きたいけど雨が降ったら月曜日かな
でも雨が降らなかったらまたチャレンジするからね!

今日も一日良く頑張ったね
この後は穏やかな時間でありますように
優しい土曜日の夜でありますように🍀

今日もありがとう伸輔

僕らはこの先も日々闘い続け生きて参ります
どうか弟を信じこれからも祈りをください……

川崎の闘う兄弟を応援ください
僕らは精一杯生きています｡

どうかそんな兄弟から
優しい風を感じてください……

俺ら負けねぇから
よろしくお願いします｡

生きよう
生きろ
生きる｡

証 : A testament to my little brother’s life.
The callus on my younger brother’s finger, which was large from constantly drawing manga, is getting smaller.

Two months of praying, watching over, and being close to each other
My younger brother’s condition changes rapidly every day.
Sometimes it’s calm, but then it suddenly gets worse.
I’ve been watching my younger brother fight every day for two months.
He was moved from the ICU to the general ward, and the day his condition worsened, he was moved to a private room.

The tubes connected to the body repeatedly decrease and increase.
I lost so much muscle that I can’t believe I weighed 90kg.
Appearance of becoming thinner

Yesterday, it was exactly two months since I was brought to the emergency room after suffering and fighting.
He made me feel his calm breathing and facial expressions.

My wife, I, and my family continue to be close to each other.
Changes in my younger brother’s daily life even in a vegetative state
A slight change in facial expression or symptoms that appear on the body
I started to feel like something was happening or that I was in pain.

Eyes open as wide as possible, blinking, mouth movements
I feel like I’ve told you something

But I don’t know if I’m awake or asleep
Whether you’re holding my hand or rubbing my foot
Even when my limbs are being rehabilitated, I help them take off their sweat.
Even if I remove the mucus that has hardened on the eyelids,
I don’t know if I hate it or not
If I knew just that, I could leave her alone.

Even when I can’t express my feelings
I wish I could understand my brother’s feelings like that.

I want to do anything, I want to help you

I started to understand how to look at various machines.
I felt my brother’s condition through the numbers.
I can feel my brother’s struggle through numbers, breathing, and facial expressions.

A brother who fights for a long time

But I believe that someday, I will go to the shrine to pray every day, pray at the Shinto altar, and feel my brother no matter where I am.
She returned to lessons even though she was not able to show her true potential.
I don’t have permission to ride a bicycle either.
I started riding, conscious of the speed of my brother’s journey to the hospital.
Days aiming for a hospital along the river

If I can see the hospital, I can feel the shadow of my brother’s fighting breathing.
I want my younger brother to undergo rapid rehabilitation.
I live a regular and busy life every day.

So thank you brother
Thank you for continuing to fight every day

We will continue to send warm prayers from all over the world.
We will live together as a family, believing and praying together.

One month has passed, and another month has passed, and I have been sending messages to my younger brother via LINE about how he was fighting in the hospital for the second month…
I hope it reaches your heart…
Please feel the struggle of my younger brother in his second month…

And please continue to pray for me
Thank you for your support.

【Shinsuke’s days of struggle at the hospital, second month】

Wednesday, October 8th, the second day of the general ward
The first day of the second month of hospitalization
On the second day of the general ward, did you feel a little calmer?
I was surprised at how badly he was sleeping when he entered the hospital room today…
One leg is out of bed
I thought he was trying to escape from the ward like Grandma and me.
Even if you don’t have the kind of feeling that makes you miss the scenery outside or the atmosphere outside, you’re in the same blood…
I really understand…
In a room without a window, you especially miss the view outside.
I was always looking out the big window while I was in the hospital…
After Shinsuke and his wife came to visit us while in the hospital, he wanted to go outside together while taking him to the entrance…
Even today, I can remember Shinsuke’s hand waving back that day and his face…
Today I was able to feel Shinsuke’s movements and expressions a lot.

Today, I was surprised to see people who I missed and loved ones who worked in the hospital.
And he seems to be very close to Shinsuke and help him out.
Shinsuke and his wife joined the circle
I hope it was a good day for Shinsuke and his wife.
Shinsuke, who lived to the fullest today, lived to the fullest.
Slowly calmly breathe and take steps without rushing
Tomorrow we hope that all brothers, couples and family will be warm and warm!
Shinsuke Thank you for today, thank you very much
I hope you have a relaxed rest and a gentle night…

Thursday, October 9th, third day of general ward
Today is a windy day due to the typhoon passing by.
This morning I felt a strong wind while visiting the shrine.
cloudy morning
Today too, the dragon god at the chozubya, the guardian dogs, and the god at the shrine.
Everyone was smiling and feeling the breeze.
I went home praying for Shinsuke, praying for the health of his family, and praying for everyone who prayed.
Today at the hospital, the rehabilitation teacher gave me rehabilitation.
I learned
During rehabilitation, Shinsuke yawned and convulsed his fingers, wrists, arms, joints, shoulders, and armpits.
Is it painful or comfortable?
Rehabilitation while watching and feeling facial expressions
Shinsuke seemed happy and calm when his wife underwent rehabilitation with the doctor.
My wife cleaned up Shinsuke’s face.
Today, I had my feet massaged and my dry feet wiped with a warm towel.
Shinsuke felt refreshed and was sleeping comfortably.
Today is another step for Shinsuke and his family.
So that Shinsuke can take a step forward comfortably.
Time to snuggle
Let’s take another step together tomorrow!
You did your best today too!

Friday, October 10th, 4th day of general ward
This morning, the air that suddenly became colder last night remains.
When I went to pray at the shrine again today, there were a lot of ginkgo nuts that had been dropped by the wind from yesterday, lying on the grass and giving off a unique smell.
Around this time, the trees started to lose their color and turn into autumn colors.
I want Shinsuke to feel the pleasant autumn breeze as well.
I went to the hospital a little early today.
I’ll start by doing the rehabilitation I learned yesterday.
I still yawn, move my body, and tremble.
I wiped his face and refreshed him.
After my father and I got home, my wife came over and it seemed like she was going to wash her hair for the first time in a while.
I’m sure he looks pleasant
I’m relieved that the fever seems to have calmed down to around 6 degrees Celsius today.
Once I feel refreshed, I can calm down and have a peaceful night again.
I think Shinsuke is busy today too.
A little time to spend with family
I hope you are feeling it to the fullest.
The inside of Shinsuke Hospital is warm, so it might be hard to sweat.
If you sweat, my family will wipe it off for you.
My younger brother is losing muscle and getting thinner day by day.
You did a good job today too.
I hope you have a gentle night…
Thank you Shinsuke

Saturday, October 11th, a cold and rainy day
On a light rainy morning, I went to pray at Hie Shrine in the rain.
The air of the shrine covered with raindrops feels gentle again.
The Ryujin of the Chozuya, the green grass, and the moss-covered trees.
I feel that the guardian dogs and the shrine gods are kinder than usual.
Today too, I prayed for Shinsuke and his family, and on the way home, I ran into my father and went to the shrine by mistake.
Today is a cold rainy day
I went to Shinsuke, and today he was having trouble breathing, but after having his tongue sucked twice, he finally seemed to have calmed down.
I rehabilitated and massaged their limbs, borrowed a warm towel, wiped their faces, wiped their limbs, and took turns with their wives.
Shinsuke seemed to be having trouble breathing.
I hope you’ll be calm tomorrow
It must have been tough today, but you did your best.
I hope tomorrow will be a calm and gentle Sunday…

Sunday October 12th
Shinsuke until the last minute today
After completing the picture I wanted to draw, I went to Shinsuke in a panic.
This morning I ran into my father at the entrance of the shrine and went to the shrine by mistake.
The shrine, where traces of rain still remain, was filled with the smell of ginkgo nuts.
Today too, the gods smiled kindly on me and made me feel a gentle breeze.
In the afternoon, I went to see Shinsuke with his wife, and after hearing from his wife what the teacher had said, I went back to Shinsuke.
Shinsuke seems to be having trouble breathing again today.
Complete rehabilitation and massage, wipe tears and face clean
I asked the nurse again about the doctor’s story.
Shinsuke has lost his muscles and has water in his lungs, so he seems to be in pain.
After that today, I had my diapers and clothes changed.
Please change your sleeping position
Have your tongue inhaled and your breathing calm down a little.
If you think things have gotten better, something else will happen.
Shinsuke fights through pain every day.
It must have been tough today, but you did your best.
rest assured
I hope you have a gentle night…
see you tomorrow
Let’s do our best together!

October 13th
Shinsuke
Today was a public holiday
The sky was cloudy and it rained for a while in the morning, but after that we could see blue skies!
Today as well, I’ve been meeting my father at the shrine every day (lol).
Today I went to see Shinsuke because I mistook him for his wife.
I felt like I was having a hard time breathing today too.
After I had him change his sleeping position, change his diaper, and have the phlegm sucked out again, he seemed to have calmed down.
I’m tired…you did your best
It was a holiday for the rest of the world, but Shinsuke is working hard every day without a break…
I have to try harder too…
Lessons will resume this week as well.
I will take a step just like Shinsuke!
I’m worried that I won’t be able to meet you because it’s time for my visiting time and lesson time.
I’ll ask my father to tell me about Shinsuke!
Let’s work together to make a new start each day!
I think I’m tired today too.
I hope you have a gentle night today and beyond…

Tuesday, October 14th
You worked hard today too.
Your lungs and internal organs are not feeling well, making it difficult to breathe.
But I’m breathing hard and living to the fullest!
I even had my wife trim my beard.
You looked nice today too
After all, the family can’t help but feel sorry for Shinsuke’s painful appearance.
I want to change too
My mother also goes to the household altar every day and cries out loud over and over again, asking God and grandparents for Shinsuke to come home.
I have a gastrointestinal examination tomorrow, so I think I’ll be tired again.
I have my wife and family by my side…
Let’s do our best together!
When I went there today, my surgical gown was off and my stomach and legs were exposed, and one of my legs had fallen off…
I hid it, but it seems like it has moved a lot…
I guess he just couldn’t help it because he wanted to follow his wife…
Even after that, I was convulsing, rumbling, and couldn’t calm down.
I hope you can breathe calmly at night…
My body is weak inside and it’s just painful.
It’s okay. Shinsuke can overcome any hardship!
Because I have the best wife and family, and my friends and fans continue to support and pray for me…
Shinsuke is not alone.
Let’s all get through this together!
You did your best today too!
I hope you have a gentle night…

Wednesday, October 15th Cloudy skies followed by rain
Today was a chilly day with cloudy skies
It started raining around the time I got home, and the sound of rain is still echoing in the outside world…
On the way home, I said goodbye to my dad and came home soaking wet…
Shinsuke, I’m glad your sister came today too…
But it still seemed like it was difficult to breathe, and my breathing rate was high…
You’re fighting so hard inside your body…
It’s hard because all the painful things keep happening
Shinsuke always wins in the end.
The whole family supports and believes in Shinsuke’s hard work, and we will always pray for him!
The teacher’s talk today was a painful one.
Even though my wife is scared and suffering, she believes in Shinsuke’s strength and is fighting with clenched teeth just like Shinsuke.
The whole family is fighting alongside Shinsuke.
So, believe in everyone else, focus on your own fight, and get your body back in shape!
If you feel like giving up, I’ll give you everything from the neck down!

It’s a tough time right now, but we’re all here for you.
Believe in your body and fight as hard as you can
We’re always fighting together in Shinsuke’s heart!
It’s okay because you’re not alone

You’re doing your best
I’ll take you to my mom on Friday, who I’ve always wanted to see.
Shinsuke did a great job today too.
Let’s live kindly, strong and warmly
You’re tired today too.
slow down and breathe
I wish you a gentle night…

Thursday, October 16th
Today’s fortune telling was that Aries was number 1!
I didn’t pay much attention to fortune-telling, but when I started looking at Shinsuke’s zodiac sign, I became curious about Aries’ fortune-telling ranking, so I started checking it every morning! (LOL)

I don’t care about my zodiac sign, but I’m happy that I’m an Aries…

Today is a busy day with rain on and off.
It’s Thursday, and the air feels cold.

Today I went early by myself and had my growing nails trimmed.
Let me give you a massage with my mom

I felt like Shinsuke’s breathing was calmer today.
Your breathing rate seemed to be busy…
But after the phlegm was sucked out, while I was there.
I could feel Shinsuke’s calmness.

You worked hard today too.
Shinsuke is working hard every day.
The whole family believes in Shinsuke’s strength and is watching over him.

Thank you for your hard work today.
Breathe slowly and calmly at night

I hope you have a kind night today too

Tomorrow, Mom will go with me in her wheelchair.
I’m looking forward to meeting you.

It’s okay, Shinsuke.
Shinsuke is strong
see you tomorrow……

Friday, October 17th
You worked hard today too!
thank you
Today, my mom was going to see Shinsuke for the first time in a while, so I was nervous before we left, basking in the sun in the garden, waiting for him to go.
I’m nervous…I’ve always wanted to see you, but I can’t go to see you.
While folding cranes at home, I call out Shinsuke’s name and pray to my grandparents.
He looked happy and relieved to finally meet him today…

I think he wanted to talk more with his wife and mother.
He said he would talk to me while eating dinner at home next time.

Shinsuke wants to come too…
But for now, relax and concentrate on your fight.

Mom held Shinsuke’s hand and looked happy and prayed the whole time.

You’re working hard…
Please take care of your mother when you feel better!

It seems like the fever was going back and forth between 7℃ and the nurse said that the phlegm has calmed down…

After this and at night, keep calm and breathe.
Fight against the pain and suffering in your body, get to the count of 3, and ring the gong!

It was nice to meet your mom today.

Wife, Shinsuke and mother all together
It somehow made me smile and felt nostalgic.

Shinsuke, thank you for today.
I hope you have a gentle night

Sunday, October 18th and 19th, when I took a step forward from Saturday
Shinsuke, you had your body cooled down yesterday!
The fever seemed to be that high though
He was fighting as hard as he could inside his body!
I felt like he was fighting hard as he couldn’t stop sweating and cramping…
Today, I took a step forward just like Shinsuke…
I can’t ride a bicycle, so it was a long way to get to the studio because I had to transfer and walk.
It’s been a while since I had to take care of my own brain while taking lessons.
I can move more, but I have to be modest…
But since Shinsuke is working hard, I can do my best too.
Thank you!

I can’t go to see you today, and I’m not sure if I’ll be able to go to the hospital tomorrow either.
I’ll do my best too
Shinsuke and I, let’s live together and help each other in our hearts!

Monday, October 20th
It’s the start of a new week!
Mr. Koganemaru came yesterday.
Please continue to pray for Shinsuke from outside the ICU.
Also, when I enter the ICU to meet Shinsuke, please send me your power.
Mr. Koganemaru held my hand tightly and gave me strength.
I was also happy that I could meet Shinsuke and receive power directly from him.
I really wanted to meet you in good health.
Today in the morning, I went to the hospital in Kashimada for a medical examination and prescribed medicine.
I went to get a prescription.
Mom and dad are in the hospital too, so today is a day at the hospital for everyone.
I wanted to go see Shinsuke, but I’m sorry.
I heard it from Shii-chan.
I’ll do my best again this week too!
So today I will go home and then go to the shrine.
Today is a day covered with heavy clouds and occasional raindrops.
The air has gotten colder today
Shinsuke was sweating and fighting inside his body today too!
You’re doing your best
I’ll work hard to sweat too
Let’s live warmly together this week too!
I’ll see you again soon!
Please wait
You did a good job today too.
I hope you have a gentle night with the sound of gentle rain, breathing calmly…

Tuesday, October 21st A day suddenly enveloped in cold air
Shinsuke
Your breathing was calmer than usual and you worked hard today!
His mouth was moving as if he were talking.
His eyes were blinking and his father seemed happy, thinking that Shinsuke might want to say something…
The air outside is extremely cold today
It’s a cold day with no sign of summer at all.
I thought the shrine would be completely enveloped in the smell of ginkgo, but there was also the pleasant scent of osmanthus.
It feels strange…
The area along the river in front of the hospital is enveloped in cold air.
The fish were jumping on the river surface over and over like throwing stones.
The river cormorant was flapping its wings over the river surface and flying happily high in the cloud-covered sky.
Shinsuke and I want to be able to jump and fly around in the cold air like these fish and birds!
Shinsuke was sweating less today…
I still have convulsions, but I tried my best not to give up today!
My friend came today too.
Shinsuke must be feeling warmer too…
Good!
I worked really hard today and I’m tired…
After this, calm down and breathe
I wish you a calm, warm and gentle night…
Thank you again today
see you tomorrow……

October 22nd: A rainy Wednesday wrapped in cold air
   Shinsuke
   Today I am still battling high fever and joint pain caused by high fever.
   You lived your life to the fullest.
   I heard it from my wife!
   The test results weren’t bad though.
   Where is the unexplained fever coming from?
   I hope you can breathe calmly and without pain or discomfort soon.
   My wife and family are all praying for me, so don’t worry, let’s all fight together!

Today I took a shower and had my beard trimmed.
He had become a good man!

There were moments when I could tell from the numbers that my breathing seemed to be calming down.
There are moments when it becomes unstable…

Like the pain, it seems like there are waves…

   The outside world today
   Suddenly the air becomes cold
   It’s a cold, rainy day like a cold winter.

   Shinsuke stays warm and calm and breathes
   Please face the evil person inside your body.
   Calm down! Shinsuke will be fine.
   everyone is praying
   Because everyone is following!

Please
I wish you a gentle night…

Thursday, October 23rd
Shinsuke
It was cold this morning as yesterday’s cold air remained, but the temperature rose slightly during the day.
Although there were clouds in the sky, the blue sky and sunlight peeked through!
The shrine in the morning felt like autumn again today with the scent of osmanthus and ginkgo nuts…
The dragon god and the guardian dogs at the chozuisha seemed a little cold…

Today in the river in front of the hospital, there were so many fish jumping around that it felt abnormal.
I was like, “What’s going on?”

I thought Shinsuke was jumping up and down too.
You were breathing hard and working hard today too!

There was sweat on his forehead and it looked like he was cooling down his whole body!
But I felt like she looked more calm than yesterday.

Although the convulsions and pain inside my body are painful,
The pain and discomfort will be relieved as soon as possible
I hope Shinsuke calms down and breathes, and the fever he has to exterminate the bad guys in his body subsides…

We are all praying 🍀

You worked hard and did your best today too.
Thank you very much for your hard work…
I hope the night after this will be a kind night for Shinsuke🍀

Thank you for today too Shinsuke

Friday, October 24th
Shinsuke
I thought today was going to be a cloudy day, but it started raining and it ended up being a rainy day.
Today is another day of cold air.

This morning, I prayed at Hie Shrine, where the ginkgo nuts were rolling and the scent of osmanthus was filling.

Ryujin at the Chozuya also looked a little chilly today, but I let Shinsuke bathe in the water to help cool down his fever.

Every time, I sprinkle water on the area where Shinsuke is suffering and pray to the Dragon God.

I thought Shinsuke’s convulsions had calmed down today and his breathing was stable, but his fever was quite high.
You’re fighting as hard as you can inside your body.

It seems that they are conducting various tests to find the bad part without knowing what is wrong with it…

I hope they find out what’s going on inside Shinsuke soon and calm down…

Everyone is with me, so don’t worry, it’s okay.
Shinsuke will definitely win!

And today, people from Akita Shoten came to visit us.
He seems to be working for Shinsuke.
The connections that Shinsuke has created have all helped Shinsuke.

Shinsuke is truly amazing!

I don’t know when yet, but I will be appearing in WORLD ORDER’s work again so that Shinsuke will be happy.

I’ll do my best too
I’m walking step by step with Shinsuke.

rainy night
Thank you for your hard work today.
The fever has subsided and I can breathe calmly.
I wish you a gentle night…🍀

Thank you for today too Shinsuke

Saturday, October 25th
Shinsuke
Today was another cold and rainy day.
Shinsuke seemed calm today too, and his breathing was calm.
The mouth spasms and fever seemed to be high.
I had it chilled…

Shii-chan and her mother brought an ice pack to keep me cool.
It kept my hands cool!

Because everyone is by Shinsuke’s side
Fight the fever with peace of mind

They don’t know the cause, so they’re doing a lot of tests.
It seems that various abnormalities in my body are decreasing.

Heat is my enemy now.
I’m always close to Shinsuke and have the same feelings in my heart.

Let’s do our best to stay warm!
I let the dragon god bathe in the water today too.
I think it’s painful because the fever hasn’t come down yet.
It’s okay, Shinsuke can defeat any enemy!

I think you are tired from testing and fighting the fever.
I hope the night is a calming and gentle time…

You did a good job today too.
I can’t go dancing tomorrow though

I’ll see you again soon
Let’s do our best together!!

Calm down and breathe…

Sunday, October 26th
Shinsuke
You did a great job today too!
This week is a battle against fever
It was painful…
We don’t know the cause yet, so I think it’s time for more tests.
I think it’s hard because I’m busy every day.
I hope next week the severe fever will subside and Shinsuke will be able to spend his days calming down even a little…

I couldn’t go to see you at the dance today, but
I’ll go see my dad again tomorrow!

I’m still not perfect though
I’m living to the fullest
Let’s live warmly together, Shinsuke!

I went to vote for Fukuda-san from 7am today!
Shinsuke wanted to go too…

Today was another cold and rainy day
It would be nice to see blue skies next week, including Shinsuke’s fight!

You did a good job this week too.
Thank you for your hard work
Let’s do our best together this new week!

I hope Shinsuke can breathe calmly tonight too.
I hope you have a gentle night.

Monday, October 27th
The start of a new week is bright and sunny for the first time in a while.
I felt the heat of the sunlight
Shinsuke’s fever seemed to be high and unstable today as well.
The nurses and mother were cooling Shinsuke to cool down his fever…
Shinsuke couldn’t seem to stop twitching his mouth and legs.
You fought hard
I brought nail clippers and a nail file to trim my nails today.
I’m glad it turned out beautifully…

Monday is the start of a pleasant and sunny new week.
I also took a step forward and tried riding a bicycle.
It’s been a long time since I rode a bicycle and it feels so fast.
I thought my brain would be fine due to the amount of information coming into my eyes and the instantaneous power.

I fought with my brain to drive safely.
Even if it’s scary, you have to take the first step.

Shinsuke is fighting as hard as he can every day, so I have to fight too…
A new week, Shinsuke’s fever calms down and the pain is gone.
I hope you can breathe calmly…

Let’s live warmly this new week
Tomorrow I’ll bring the circulator I bought today…

Let’s all do our best this week too.

Tuesday, October 28th
Shinsuke
It seems like the fever has calmed down a bit today, but it seems like it’s still unstable and the fever keeps going up and down…
But it seems like his fever is slightly less high, and he doesn’t have to cool it down as much anymore…
When I went to see him, there was sweat on his forehead and I thought he was still battling a high fever.
It would have been nice if Shinsuke had felt better, even just a little.
You can’t feel safe…
But you fought well so far!
The sky was pleasantly clear today, and the sun was warm during the day…
The wind was cool and I felt the autumn breeze
I want to make Shinsuke feel that too…

Today, I also took a step towards the Tsurumi River by bicycle in the evening…
It’s still scary and I feel like my brain can’t keep up with the amount and speed of information that’s reflected in my eyes, so I’m trying to drive safely…

If I can ride a bicycle, the distance to Tobu Hospital will be shorter.
It looks like it will be better without having to take a detour…

Anyway, today’s sunset sky over the Tsurumi River felt so big and vivid, even though it was the first time in about two months since before the surgery.

I went to take a picture because I wanted to show it to Shinsuke.

Shinsuke A new week has just begun
This week too, don’t rush, take each step slowly but warmly and calmly.
Let’s move on!

You did your best today too
After this, I hope you can calm down, breathe, and have a gentle night.

Thank you for today too.

Wednesday, October 29th
Shinsuke
It was tough today
Still, you tried your best
Due to various things happening in the body
A lot of painful things happened
It’s painful, isn’t it?
My blood pressure has dropped today.
It seemed like there was nothing I could do
I did my best and with the help of medicine, I was able to recover even though I was still unstable!
Shinsuke brought all the family together and let us meet…
Everyone was in tears, but don’t worry.
Everyone is always by Shinsuke’s side!
Even though it was still prohibited, I rode my bicycle and went to see him.
I wasn’t scared at all because I wanted to go see Shinsuke as soon as possible…
Thank you for supporting me every step of the way
Shinsuke always gives me emotional support…
I’m sorry I can’t give you anything in return.
From now on, I will continue to dance for Shinsuke, create plays for Shinsuke, draw them for Shinsuke, and send them to Shinsuke!
Please feel it!
The sky at dusk today was so vivid that I wanted to share it with Shinsuke…
Shinsuke, let’s somehow calm down his breathing and blood pressure, make a comeback, and continue to create miracles together as brothers!
Let’s live!

Thank you for today too
I’ll go see Shinsuke again tomorrow.
Don’t give up, fight together and once you’ve calmed down, take a breather and be close to your precious wife’s heart.

Please, my wife and I
I hope you have a gentle night 🍀

Thursday, October 30th
Shinsuke
After yesterday’s tough battle, even though I’m on medication today, I feel relieved to be able to calm down a little and see my calm breathing and sleeping face…
Shinsuke’s breathing, the breathing movements of his warm limbs, stomach, and chest.
I could feel it

I’m glad I was able to spend some time with Shii-chan yesterday for the first time in a while.

Mr. Koganemaru came yesterday and today, and today, Mr. Honda from Akita Shoten and Clownman also came.
And your sister came too.

Everyone came to see Shinsuke.
We had a warm time.

It’s because Shinsuke worked hard to overcome the difficult mountain!

Mom and dad also seemed relieved when they learned about Shinsuke’s condition…

There may be many painful battles, but
Everyone is always close to Shinsuke’s heart.

There must have been many tests and painful moments today too.
Thank you for making everyone feel calm.

I am proud to see Shinsuke fighting hard.
I’m the best brother

Thank you for today too
I hope it’s a gentle night 🍀

Friday, October 31st
Shinsuke
I wonder if I heard a familiar voice today too…
Friends who shared many memories with Shinsuke from junior high and high school came to see us!
I wonder if we could talk about our memories and the future…
Today, I worked hard to reduce the amount of medicine one step further.
My body doesn’t seem to be feeling well, and the blood test results don’t seem to be bad either.
It made me feel amazing again…
I’m glad I was able to feel Shinsuke’s calm breathing and facial expressions today as well.
Mom also looked relieved.
Shinsuke’s hands and feet are warm, and his eyes are kind.
I hope I can calm down for a while after climbing the high mountain…

There will always be tough moments, but Shii-chan, mom, me, dad and mom, and all of my friends will always be by Shinsuke’s side.

Don’t worry, let’s fight and get better step by step.

You did your best today too
It’s raining heavily outside
Please take a breath and calm down.

I hope you have a calm and gentle night 🍀

Thank you for today, Shinsuke

Saturday, November 1st
Shinsuke
Today, just like yesterday, my friends came to see Shinsuke one after another!
Lotte Orions’ cap Shinsuke looked good on him!!
I received wonderful presents and met friends from high school.
I guess today was filled with nostalgic stories again.

I’m happy that everyone loves Shinsuke!

Today again, my blood pressure medication was gradually reduced, which is the result of Shinsuke’s hard work…
But don’t do anything that’s impossible, and let’s fight step by step without worrying!

My hands and feet were swollen today, but I guess it’s okay…
When you are in pain, please calm down, breathe, and calm down…

Tomorrow I’ll see if I can go see Shinsuke after dance lesson🚲

I guess I was a little tired because I met up with so many friends today.
May the night be calm and peaceful again.

I hope you have a gentle night 🍀

I was happy to see Shinsuke again today and to be able to see his expression and feel his breathing.

Thank you very much

Sunday, November 2nd
Shinsuke
This week has been tough
But today, I hope the amount of medicine has decreased and I can breathe a little calmer and calmer…
It would be nice if I could calm down again after a difficult week and move forward step by step towards tomorrow 👣

Today I passed by Inage Shrine and prayed from outside.
Afterwards, we passed through the Tome Shrine and prayed from outside.
As I mentioned earlier, I stopped by Ikegami Honmonji Temple and prayed to Rikidozan, the god of professional wrestling, for Shinsuke before the lesson!

I think he will be a reliable ally for Shinsuke, who loves professional wrestling!

After the lesson, I rode my bicycle as hard as I could.
I’m glad I was able to meet Shinsuke!!

I was able to meet Shii-chan and Shinsuke too.
I’m glad I was able to meet the best couple and have a family reunion.
I sweated more than the dance lesson though (lol)

I’m glad I could feel Shinsuke’s warmth and breathing even just a little bit.

I’m sending this because the sunset sky I saw from the riverside on my way home was incredibly beautiful and vivid.

The new week is like this for Shinsuke: his mind, his body, his head, everything.
Like a colorful sky
I hope you have a kind week 🍀

You worked hard this week too.
Thank you Shinsuke

I hope you have a gentle night after this…

November 3rd public holiday Monday
Shinsuke
Today, I couldn’t stop sweating, I couldn’t breathe, and I couldn’t keep my breath steady.
When I looked at Shinsuke’s expression, it looked like he was clenching his teeth and had tears in his eyes.
I’m trying hard to get back
I feel like I’m regretting not being able to go back.
I was also frustrated and in pain…

I’m working so hard, I’m sure something wonderful will happen.

So don’t rush, calm down, hold on for now, and hold on.
I’ll stand together with you

So don’t rush, just take it one step at a time

Today is a cultural holiday with summer-like clouds and strong winds.

Tomorrow I’ll be back to weekdays again.
This week too, let’s face the present with a warm heart and live without rushing.

I think everyone was happy to be able to feel Shinsuke’s kind eyes today.

Thank you Shinsuke

After this, calm down and take a breather
I wish you a peaceful night

I hope you have a gentle night…🍀

Tuesday, November 4th
Shinsuke
I’m glad that my wonderful colleagues and friends came today.
I hope it was a good time to remember the nostalgic times and faces.
After yesterday’s difficult time, today’s breathing and facial expressions seemed to be a little labored, and my limbs were swollen and looked painful.
I hope it gets better step by step…
I felt Shinsuke, even though I only felt a little bit of it today.
It was nice to talk to you for a little while.
Thank you very much

You tried your best to breathe and live your life today as well.

It seems like today was the coldest morning this year.
I certainly felt that the gods at Hie Shrine looked a little cold.
But I felt like everyone was saying that they would watch over Shinsuke and help him.

It’s a tough day, but it’s a tough day
Everyone is close to Shinsuke’s heart.

Don’t rush, stay calm and take it one step at a time

I’m also busy, but we’re doing our best together.

I can do my best because Shinsuke is here.
So thank you

I might be feeling tired today too.
I hope you have a calm, warm and kind night 🍀

Thank you for today too Shinsuke
See you tomorrow

Wednesday, November 5th
Shinsuke
Today I was number one Aries!
And I’m glad that my breathing seemed to be a little calmer today…

He had a calm expression, was breathing calmly, and seemed to have urinated.
I feel a little relieved

Were you able to talk calmly with someone you know?
I’m glad that the swelling has calmed down a bit and that Shinsuke had a nice and painless day just as my fortune told.

Let’s overcome the waves one by one and fight together to survive!

Today, the way Shinsuke’s mouth moved seemed like he was saying, “I’m going to live,” which made me really happy.

Shinsuke fights every day and may never have time to rest.
Please rest in peace when you and Shi-chan are together.

Thank you for today too
I hope you have a gentle time and a gentle night after this🍀

Thursday, November 6th
Shinsuke
It looked a little calmer again today.
Shinsuke’s breathing, facial expressions, eye and mouth movements
I feel like I’m doing a really good job.

I went to Shinsuke on my bicycle again today.
On days when it’s not raining, I can always rush to Shinsuke’s side.
It doesn’t matter if you don’t have the teacher’s permission
I’m happy because I get to meet Shinsuke soon!

Today I saw Shinsuke’s graduation album for the first time…
Maybe you don’t want to be seen
Both Shi-chan and her mother looked at Shinsuke when he was young with smiles!

This week too, time passes quickly and it’s the end of the week

It’s getting colder day by day outside
Shinsuke is warm
Don’t rush, tomorrow, one breath at a time, one step at a time
Let’s move forward together…

I think I’m tired from working hard today.
May the night be a calm and gentle time

Thank you for today too
I hope the gentle, warm wind gently wraps around Shinsuke’s mind, body, and head and gives him a moment of peace.

See you tomorrow…

Friday, November 7th
Shinsuke
Listening to Mr. Sano, who is currently working at Shinchosha, who came to see me today.
It made me realize once again how amazing Shinsuke was…
I thought it was amazing and was proud of it.
Not only that, but Shinsuke was also amazing at the Manga Artists Association.
I was so happy to be praised for Shinsuke’s greatness that I almost cried…

When I went home and told my mom, she seemed happy.
It was a day that really made me feel the hard work that Shinsuke was doing behind the scenes.

Thank you

No matter when he returns to the outside world, Shinsuke will still have work to do.
rest assured

There’s a lot of movement today
Shinsuke’s calm breathing too.
Body movements, yawns, and eye movements
I felt proof that I had lived to the fullest.

Shinsuke is amazing, I will be proud of him forever.

The pen on my fingertips and everything

The footprints of my life so far
From now on too

I think I’m tired today too.
Take it slow, one breath at a time, one step at a time.
I hope you have a peaceful night

I hope you have a nice weekend night 🍀

Saturday, November 8th
Shinsuke
When I went there today, one leg was about to get off the bed.
I thought Shinsuke’s hip joint was soft.
When I went to rehab today, my legs felt stronger.
Even as he grew thinner, I felt Shinsuke’s strength and will.
She was yawning and singing along!

I want to hear Shinsuke’s good singing voice again.
I would like to go back soon
It’s definitely no good if you rush!
Stay calm and take each step and breath!
With Shinsuke, even if he returns, he can do everything he wants right away.
Please calm down and rest your head for now.

Before I knew it, the seagulls had returned to the river and were flapping their wings happily.
Let’s take it one step at a time and don’t push ourselves too hard so that we can fly together again someday!

I will send Shinsuke the restroom on the second floor of his parents’ house where he can relax (lol)

The pendako has also become smaller.
When I come back, everyone will have a lot of work for me.
It’s okay.

One more day this week
This week, where I fought with all my might, is only tomorrow
I want to go see you tomorrow for my lesson, but if it rains, it’ll probably be Monday.
But if it doesn’t rain, I’ll try again!

You did a good job today too.
I hope you have a peaceful time after this
I hope you have a nice Saturday night 🍀

Thank you for today too Shinsuke.

We will continue to live and fight every day.
Please believe in my brother and continue to pray for him…

Please support Kawasaki’s fighting brothers.
We are living to the fullest.

Please, from such a brother.
Please feel the gentle wind…

Because we won’t lose
Thank you in advance.

Let’s live
Live
Live.

Akihiro Takahashi
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I apologize for not being able to reply to all of you who have sent me your prayers for my brother, to all of you who have sent me warm voices on Facebook, and to all of you who have been praying for me all over the world.
Thank you so much to everyone who sent us prayers and blessings.My brother and I are fighting every day to live our lives to the fullest.
My brother’s manga and the works I drew for him will continue to live on.
Please read it! Please watch it…
If my younger brother’s works are truly amazing and are re-serialized in the future, please read them.
As a family, we will continue to live together and help each other.
I hope my brother’s works reach all over the world…
Please continue to support your brother in his fight and pray for him!
Thank you very much for the warm prayers from everyone around the world.