初夢 : 僕の脳みそもちゃんと夢を見させてくれるようです
初夢 : It seems that my brain also allows me to dream properly.
春の陽気だった週末から始まりの月曜日
月曜日は､暑いくらいで､Tシャツ姿の人も見かけたくらいの暖かい一週間の始まりでした……
自転車では寒いかと思い弟の病院までの数十分の移動ではナイロンジャケットを着ていましたが､着く頃には背中にじんわり汗が滲みました……
そして日曜日､昨日と共に風が楽しそうに声をあげ駆け回り吹き荒れていました……
病院の周りや工業地帯の建物周りではビル風が激しく､風の壁に立ち向かっているようで
ペダルが重たかった週末から始まりの月曜日に掛けて……
病院の傍では自転車から降りて手で押さなければ立っているのも大変な程の風でした……
祝日から始まった新しい一週間
今週も明けましておめでとうございます……
先週も一週間お疲れ様でした
風も落ち着き静かな曇り空の火曜日
もう二月も終わろうとしている今……
今年の初夢はどんな夢だったでしょう
僕はWORLD ORDERのLIVE?で舞台袖で
もう本番が始まってる……
でも､何のリハーサルもしておらず
急に出ることになって戸惑っている様子でした
そして次に見た夢は弟の奥さん(ペーパードライバー)が､タクシードライバーと奥さんのお母さんを無理やり窮屈そうに助手席に乗せ
蒙スピードで僕の目の前に道に停まり
「えぇ!?しぃちゃん!怖っ!!」と驚いたところで目覚める夢(笑)
その後最近見た夢はこれもWORLD ORDERで
もうショーが始まっているのに
ヤバい遅刻したと慌ててステージに向かう夢でした……
夢って目茶苦茶で面白いですね
調べてみると､なんだか疲れているようです
昨年退院後から休みなんてほとんど無く､遊びなんてなく
生きている今をめいいっぱい生きようとしている毎日
僕の担当してくださっていたリハビリの先生
私と似ているから何でもかんでも詰め込んでしまう人だと言われました
くれぐれも無理しすぎないように頑張りすぎないようにと……
でもそんなこと言われてもあの牢獄に閉じ込められたような入院の日々を考えると
その時間を取り戻そうと､そして弟の為に
弟のぶんもと全部全部限りある時間のなかに詰め込んで
気づけばそれが当たり前になって
毎日パンパンに生きて
それでもそうでないと､自分が気持ち悪くなりその繰り返しで気づけば詰め込みすぎているのか
でもそんな今が嬉しくて､でも身体は疲れているのかもしれません……頑張れ体!
これまでと違う脳と感覚と向き合いつつこれからも限りある時間の中を精一杯全てを感じ生きたいです｡
先輩や友達からのLINEではそんな自分に対してそういう人間だから周りに少しは甘えてなんでも言ってと嬉しい言葉を送ってくれますが……
大丈夫なんです自分(笑)
欲張りに家族の為､弟の為自分のために
これからもみなさんに良い風を送り生きます｡
でも､最近はいつ寝たのかわからない事ばかりな毎日……
起きた時､寝た瞬間の記憶が全く無く
どうやっていつ何処で寝始めたのかわからない事の方が多い日々……
でも起きるとちゃんといつもの場所で目覚め､また一日が始まる
眠りながら動いているのでしょうね……
ある意味凄い
でも人が見たらゾンビみたいに動いているのかな……
カメラ置いて確認してみたいな……
と言うゾンビの話はさておき
先日レッスンの際バレンタインデーの続きがありました……
男の子達からみんなにチョコ
やんちゃ坊主のはるたから手作りブラウニー
先日バレンタインデーに飴玉をくれたひろあきからは改めてチョコの詰め合わせを
もらいました……
小学三年生のはるたは「俺6時半に起きて8時からママとブラウニー作ったんだ!」と……
小学二年生のひろあきもきっとママとみんなにあげるぶん一つ一つみんなの顔を想像しながら袋に詰めてたんだろうな……
そんな男子に対抗した小学三年こっちゃん
このは「私はホワイトデーにみんなにあげる」と……
普段はやんちゃな子供達
自分の小学2·3年の頃はどうだったかな……
みんな可愛い奴らです(笑)
暖かい空気の中に冷たさも感じた日曜日
帰りに羽田空港傍の橋を越え陽が工業地帯に沈み始めた頃､吹き荒れる風を感じながら
弟の元へ……
弟の具合が少し悪かった週末
結婚記念日おめでとうを伝え､顔や手足を暖かなタオルで綺麗に拭いて
夕陽が眩しい工業地帯を春の風を感じた帰路
昨日は熱も脈も落ち着き穏やかさを取り戻しつつありましたが
新しい一週間はどうか具合が良くありますように……
自分も負けないから
今週も一緒に頑張ろう!!
あたたかく一日一日をめいいっぱい
一瞬一瞬をめいいっぱい感じ生きよう
頑張るおじさん!
※(ナルトダンス……あれ……アッキーでやるから憶えておいてって(笑)……4人で踊っていたのも以前撮影したけど寒いから辞めようと言う話になっていたけど､そんな寒さを自分が照れ笑いで承りました……)もうなんでもやらなきゃ時間が勿体ないですからね､なんでもやって生きます……
それにしても､うっちーのコミカルな動きに笑をこらえるのが大変だったな……
何はともあれ早く前髪伸びないかなと思っています(笑)
みなさん､新しい一週間も
あたたかな気持ちで過ごせる
優しい一週間の日々時間でありますように……
良い夢見ろよ!(笑)なんちゃって……
また明日
今週もみんなで
強く優しくあたたかく毎日を欲張って生きよう｡
髙橋 昭博
One’s first dream in the New Year : It seems that my brain also allows me to dream properly.
Monday starts from a sunny spring weekend
Monday was the start of a warm week, with some people wearing T-shirts.
I thought it would be cold on my bike, so I wore a nylon jacket for the several minute journey to my brother’s hospital, but by the time I arrived, my back was dripping with sweat…
And on Sunday, just like yesterday, the wind was howling happily and rushing around…
The building wind is so strong around hospitals and buildings in industrial areas that it feels like you are standing against a wall of wind.
I put it on Monday after the weekend when the pedals were heavy…
Near the hospital, the wind was so strong that it was difficult to stand without getting off the bike and pushing it with your hands…
A new week started with a holiday
Happy New Year this week too…
Thank you for your hard work last week.
A calm and cloudy Tuesday with calm winds
Now that February is almost over…
What was your first dream this year?
I was on stage at WORLD ORDER’s LIVE?
The real thing has already begun…
But I haven’t done any rehearsals.
He seemed confused because he had to leave so suddenly.
The next dream I had was that my brother’s wife (paper driver) forced the taxi driver and his wife’s mother into the passenger seat, looking cramped.
He stopped on the road in front of me at a very fast speed.
A dream in which I wake up with a surprised “Eh!? Shii-chan! Scary!!” (lol)
After that, the dream I had recently was also WORLD ORDER.
The show has already started
I dreamed that I was terribly late and rushed to the stage…
Dreams are messy and interesting, aren’t they?
When I look into it, it seems like I’m kind of tired.
Since I was discharged from the hospital last year, I haven’t had much time off, and I haven’t had any fun.
Every day I try to live my life to the fullest.
The rehabilitation teacher who was in charge of me
I’ve been told that I’m a person who crams everything in because I’m similar to myself.
Please try not to push yourself too hard…
But even if you say that, when I think about the days spent in the hospital, it felt like I was locked in a prison.
Trying to get back that time, and for my brother.
I crammed all of my younger brother’s belongings into the limited time.
Before you know it, it will become normal
Live to the fullest every day
If you still don’t feel like it, you’ll start to feel sick, and if you keep repeating it, you’ll realize that you’re stuffing yourself too much.
But even though I’m happy right now, my body may be tired… Good luck, body!
I want to continue to live my limited time feeling everything to the fullest while facing a different brain and senses.
On LINE, my seniors and friends send me nice words about me, telling me to be kind to those around me and tell them anything because I’m that kind of person…
I’m fine (lol)
Greedily for his family, for his younger brother, for himself.
I will continue to send good winds to everyone.
But lately, every day I don’t know when I fell asleep…
When I woke up, I had no memory of the moment I went to sleep.
There are many days when I don’t know how, when or where I started sleeping…
But when I wake up, I wake up in my usual place and the day begins again.
I guess he’s moving while he sleeps…
Amazing in a way
But I wonder if people are moving like zombies…
I’d like to put a camera on it and check it out…
Aside from the zombie story
The other day during a lesson, there was a continuation of Valentine’s Day…
Chocolates for everyone from the boys
Handmade brownies from Haruta the naughty boy
Hiroaki, who gave me candy on Valentine’s Day the other day, gave me an assortment of chocolates again.
I got it…
Haruta, a third grade elementary school student, said, “I woke up at 6:30 and made brownies with mom at 8:00!”
I’m sure Hiroaki, a second grader in elementary school, must have packed each item into a bag to give to his mom and everyone, imagining everyone’s faces…
Ko-chan, a third-year elementary school student who competed against such a boy.
This one says, “I will give it to everyone on White Day”…
Children who are usually naughty
I wonder what it was like when I was in 2nd or 3rd grade of elementary school…
They are all cute (lol)
Sunday, I felt the coldness in the warm air.
On my way home, I crossed the bridge near Haneda Airport and felt the howling wind as the sun began to set over the industrial area.
To my brother…
The weekend my younger brother was feeling a little unwell.
Congratulations on your wedding anniversary and wipe your face and hands and feet with a warm towel.
On the way home, I felt the spring breeze through an industrial area where the setting sun was dazzling.
Yesterday, my fever and pulse had subsided and I was starting to regain my calm.
I hope you are feeling well in the new week…
Because I won’t lose either
Let’s do our best together this week too!!
Enjoy each warm day to the fullest
Let’s live and feel each moment to the fullest.
Uncle working hard!
*(Naruto dance…uh…I’ll do it with Akki, so please remember that (lol)…I filmed the four of us dancing before, but we talked about quitting because it was cold, but I accepted the cold with a shy smile…) It’s a waste of time if I don’t do anything anymore, so I’ll do anything to live…
In any case, I hope my bangs will grow soon (lol)
Happy new week everyone!
Enjoy a warm feeling
I hope you have a kind week…
Have a sweet dream! (lol) What the hell…
See you tomorrow
This week too, everyone
Let’s be strong, kind, warm, and live each day with passion.
Akihiro Takahashi
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