生きろ：My precious little brother’s strong and gentle hands.

生きろ:My precious little brother, my young brother who I felt for granted by my side, it’s so painful to see the current suffering of my loved ones… I want them to live, laugh, talk, and support each other again.

生きろ:俺の大切な弟､当たり前に傍に感じた弟､自分の傍の大切な人の今の苦しんでいる姿を目の当たりにするのが苦しすぎる……生きて欲しいまた笑い合い語り合い支え合いたい

朝目覚める度涙が溢れる､弟にも同じように目覚め光や空気をまた感じて欲しい
僕の事を祈り続けてくれた大切な弟､何でそうなったのか
何で兄弟揃って立て続けにこんな思いをするのだろう
苦しい｡悔しい｡自分が弟の立場だったら良かったけど
大切な人の苦しむ姿､管に繋がれ生かされている姿は本当に苦しい

小さな頃は細くて弱くて泣き虫だった可愛い奴が
いつの間にか自分より大きくなってたくましくなって
もう助けなんて要らないんだなと感じた瞬間
寂しさと嬉しさがあった……

昔から優しくてお兄ちゃんが大好きでわがままで絵が好きで
お友達が沢山居ていつもあたたかな輪の中に笑顔で居た弟
今も大切な仲間達や友達に囲まれ大切にされ生きていた弟

そんな素敵な人達に囲まれ楽しそうに生きていた弟､そんな仲間の話を嬉しそうに話す弟､そんな話を実家の庭でするさりげない時間が､瞬間が僕は好きでした

子供の頃はくだらないことで喧嘩もしたり口を利かないこともあったり
でも伸輔は自分の道を貫き大きな夢を掴み
ずっと俺は周りに自慢していました

今も自慢しています
優しく素敵なパパで子供達の自慢のパパ

俺はそんな伸輔の姿を傍で見ていて感じていて
嬉しかった

伸輔の一歩一歩を傍で感じ
今ももっともっと大きな挑戦を続け
次の作品も決まっていて

俺が入院中は何度も連絡をくれ顔を見せてくれて
さりげない話に笑顔とツッコミと心の安らぎをくれて

色々な神社や､おじいちゃんおばあちゃんのお墓参りへ行き俺の帰りを祈ってくれて

お互いを高め合え支え合えるそんな大切な兄弟
僕の一部な弟

そんな弟の今の姿に涙が止まらない日々
今暗闇で迷子になっているのなら
手を伸ばし手をとり掴み救いだしたい

当たり前だった弟の声や姿をまた感じたい

お互い似ている声で話し方で笑い話し

伸輔の笑顔をまた感じたい

倒れた日に駆けつけてから
その後も毎日伸輔の元へ行っていますが
日に日に顔色が良くなっているように感じ
でも呼び掛けにも反応は無く

眠ったままの弟

俺が変わってあげられるものなら変わってあげたい

もっともっと生きなきゃいけない弟
そして自分も

いつか一緒に作品を創りたいそんな話をしながら叶えられていない兄弟の兄の大きな夢

生きて帰ったら二人で
そんな作品を紡ぎたい

また一緒に二人で近所の飲み屋で語り合いたい
実家でご飯をたべながら笑い合いたい

俺の事をいつもどこかで支えていてくれた弟

今の姿は苦しくて可哀想で
俺の中ではいつまでも可愛い弟で
何かあれば守ってあげたい弟で
でも今何も出来なくて
呼び掛けても呼び掛けても
声や笑いが反って来ること無く眠り続けている弟

何かさせてほしい守ってやりたい
迷子なら駆けつけ見つけ出してやりたい

何で苦しい思いしなきゃいけないのか
頑張って生きてるのに

もっともっと一緒の時間を過ごしたい

助けてあげたい守ってあげたい

昨日母を車椅子に乗せ一緒に伸輔の元へ
母も伸輔の手に触れながら涙を流し伸輔に何度も何度も呼び掛け思いを届けに連れ戻しに行きました

伸輔がお世話になっている漫画作家､劇作家の小金丸先生がICUに入れなくても外からﾊﾟﾜｰを送りたいと駆けつけてくださり何度もICUの外から伸輔に呼び掛け祈りﾊﾟﾜｰを送ってくださりました

僕や伸輔の奥さんや母の手をとり
僕の代わりに伸輔にﾊﾟﾜｰを送ってくれと言ってくださりました……

BADHOPのT-Pablowさんも声を録音し伸輔に呼び掛けてくれました
彼は大阪まで行き一つだけ願いが叶う神社まで伸輔の帰りを祈りに駆けつけてくださっているようです……

大勢の方々に愛されてる伸輔

こんなあたたかな方々に囲まれ生きていた伸輔
大勢の方々が伸輔にﾎﾞｲｽﾒｯｾｰｼﾞを送ってくれて
伸輔の耳元で奥さんが聴かせていました……

僕も何度も何度も伸輔生きよう生きろ
一緒に笑い合おう伸輔生きようと呼び掛けました

朝から写真を沢山現像しに行き額を買って伸輔のICUのﾃｰﾌﾞﾙに御守りと一緒に並べてきました

大勢の方の祈りが届き弟が目を覚まし､また笑顔を見せてくれますよう
いつまでも祈り続けます

俺は伸輔が居ることが当たり前だったけれど
こうなるのは当たり前じゃないし
弟には昔も今も一瞬も苦しんで欲しくないし悲しい思いして欲しくはない

子供の頃のように助けてあげたい
悪い病気が居るのなら乗り込んで二度とするなと怒鳴りたい

助けて欲しいです伸輔を
大切な世界一の自慢の弟を

僕も頭が爆破つしそうなほど伸輔が恋しいです
伸輔が帰ってくるのを祈り声をかけ続けます

どうか神様が居るのなら伸輔を助けてあげてください

守ってあげてください
俺も全力で伸輔を守ります

優しい風を声をﾊﾟﾜｰを全力で贈り続けます

生きろ伸輔
生きよう伸輔

俺らはまだ生きなきゃ
待ってくれている方々が居るのだから
ただいまの声待ってるよ……

お帰りを言わせて
もっと一緒の時間を大切にしよう

生きろ伸輔
もっと自慢させてくれ……

俺も負けないから伸輔も負けんな
生きろ｡

いつまで経っても僕の大切で自慢で、可愛い弟
お願いしますみなさんの祈りを想いをﾊﾟﾜｰを心の中で､伸輔に届けてあげてください……

生きろ:My precious little brother, my young brother who I felt for granted by my side, it’s so painful to see the current suffering of my loved ones… I want them to live, laugh, talk, and support each other again.

Every time I wake up in the morning, I want my younger brother to feel the light and air again.
 My precious little brother who kept praying for me, why did that happen?
 Why do all the brothers feel this way in a row?
 It’s painful. It’s frustrating. I wish I was in my younger brother’s position
 It’s really painful to see someone who is loved and being connected to a tube and kept alive.

 When I was little, I was thin, weak, and crybaby, so cute
 Before I knew it, I became bigger and stronger than I was
 The moment I felt like I didn’t need any help anymore
 There was loneliness and joy…

 He’s always kind, loves his big brother, selfish and loves drawing.
 My younger brother had lots of friends and always had a smile in a warm circle.
 My younger brother was still surrounded by his precious friends and friends and was cherished and lived.

 I loved the moment when the little brother lived happily surrounded by such wonderful people, the younger brother happily tells the story of such friends, the casual moments he had in his parents’ garden.

 When I was a child, I sometimes got into fights or don’t speak over silly things.
 However, Shinsuke followed his own path and captured big dreams
 I’ve always boasted about it

 I’m still bragging about it
 A kind and lovely dad and the kids’ proud dad

 I was able to feel the sight of Shinsuke from the sidelines.
 I was happy

 Feel Shinsuke’s every step from the side
 I will continue to take on even bigger challenges
 The next work has been decided

 While I was in the hospital, I contacted him many times and showed him my face.
 Give me a smile, a comment and peace of mind in my casual conversation

 They went to visit various shrines and grandpa’s graves to pray for me to return.

 Such a precious brother who can improve and support each other
 A part of my brother

 My tears can’t stop coming to terms with my younger brother’s current appearance
 If you’re lost in the dark right now
 I want to reach out, grab my hand, and save him

 I want to feel the voice and appearance of my younger brother again, which was obvious.

 Speak in a similar voice and laughter

 I want to feel Shinsuke’s smile again

 After rushing to the day he collapsed
 I’ve been going to Shinsuke every day since then.
 It feels like my complexion is getting better every day
 But there was no response to the appeal

 My little brother is sleeping

 If I can change, I want to change

 My little brother who needs to live more and more
 And myself too

 The big dream of a brother who is not fulfilled, as they talk about how they want to create a work together someday.

 When I get home alive, I’ll be the two of you
 I want to spin such a work

 I want to talk together again at a nearby bar
 I want to laugh while eating at my parents’ house

 My little brother who always supported me somewhere

 I feel sad and sad now
 For me, I will always be a cute little brother
 My younger brother wants to protect me if anything happens
 But I can’t do anything now
 Whether you call or call
 My younger brother continues to sleep without his voice or laughter arching

 I want to do something and I want to protect you
 If you’re lost, I want to rush in and find it

 Why do I have to feel sad?
 I’m trying hard to live

 I want to spend more time together

 I want to help you and protect you

 Yesterday I put my mother in a wheelchair and went to Shinsuke together.
 My mother also shed tears as she touched Shinsuke’s hand, and called out to Shinsuke over and over again to bring her back to her feelings.

 Koganemaru, a manga writer and playwright who Shinsuke is taking care of, came to visit us to send power from outside even if we couldn’t enter the ICU, and many times he called out to Shinsuke from outside the ICU and sent prayer power.

 Take the hands of me and Shinsuke’s wife and mother.
 He asked Shinsuke to send power in my place…

 BADHOP’s T-Pablow also recorded his voice and called out to Shinsuke.
 He seems to have gone to Osaka and rushed to the shrine where one wish comes true to Shinsuke to pray for his return…

 Shinsuke is loved by many people

 Shinsuke was surrounded by such warm people
 Many people sent Shinsuke a message.
 His wife was making him listen in Shinsuke’s ear…

 I’ll live again and again, Shinsuke
 We called on Shinsuke to live together, laughing together

 I went to develop lots of photos from the morning to buy some frames and lined them up along with the amulets on Shinsuke’s ICU table.

 I hope that many people will receive prayers and my younger brother will wake up and smile again
 I’ll continue to pray forever

 It was only natural that Shinsuke would be there
 It’s not natural that this happens
 I don’t want my younger brother to suffer for a moment, or for the past, or for a moment, and I don’t want him to feel sad.

 I want to help you like I was a child
 If you have a bad illness, I want to get in and yell at him, “Don’t do it again?”

 I want to help Shinsuke
 My precious little brother in the world

 I miss Shinsuke so much that my head is about to explode
 I continue to pray for Shinsuke to come back.

 Please, if there is God, please help Shinsuke.

 Please protect me
 I’ll protect Shinsuke with all my might

 We will continue to give our gentle breeze and voices with all our might

 Live Shinsuke
 Let’s live Shinsuke

 We still have to live
 Because there are people waiting
 I’m waiting for your voice now…

 Tell me you go home
 Let’s cherish more time together

 Live Shinsuke
 Let me boast more…

 I won’t lose either, so Shinsuke won’t lose either
 Live.

No matter how long it goes,it’s important,proud,and my cute little brother…….
 Please, please send your prayers to Shinsuke in your heart…

Akihiro Takahashi
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