一歩 : The gears start to move quietly, the wind blows the sound of the needle

一歩 : 静かに動き出す歯車針の音吹く風

一歩 : The gears start to move quietly, the wind blows the sound of the needle

月曜日､弟にとって約五ヶ月間過ごしてきた現在の病院で最後の夜を過ごす日
昨日火曜日の午後一時半これまでの横浜の病院長く過ごさせていただいた急性期病院から川崎の緩和ケア病棟のある病院へ転院

自分も横浜の病院から夫婦を見送り新しい川崎の工業地帯の奥の病院まで自転車で駆け抜けました

これまでの川沿いの景色から錆色の道をひたすら駆け抜け羽田空港を感じるくらいの工業地帯脇にある国際病院へ
おじいちゃんおばあちゃんも入院していたことのある病院

弟はストレッチャーに乗せられてだけど久々に外の空気を感じ陽射しを感じ暑かった夏の空気から冷たい冬の空気を一瞬だけど感じられた昨日

自分もずっと外の空気に陽射しに風が愛おしかった入院時
弟は約五ヶ月ぶりの空気を感じた一瞬
どうだったかな……

新しい病院までの道のりはこれまでとは比べ物にならないくらい空気は悪いけど
それでもこれからまた駆け抜け逢いに行く道
だんだんとまた馴れて何て事ないくらいの距離に感じるのかな……

新たな環境で新たな生活
弟は緊張眠れない数日が続くかもしれないけれど
今度の病院はこれまでの病院8階から6階へ……
また一歩下がり出入り口に近づきました

これからも夫婦､家族で弟が入り口から元気に出ていけるように寄り添い心支え続けられたら幸せです

また一歩新しい一歩へ歩みを進めた弟
そして弟夫婦

これまでの病院でお世話になった方々にご挨拶できて､弟を新たな病院へ見送れて
そして新たな病院の病院着に着替え穏やかに疲れを癒す弟の姿を感じられて
夫婦のホッとした表情を感じられて良かったです……

これまでの景色にサヨナラ
これからの景色にコンニチハ

俺もまた一歩慌ただしい日々の中に
弟まで届くように一歩をこの脳みそで歩んで行きます｡

今日もまた早朝から動き出した水曜日

大切な一瞬を一歩を踏みしめ今日も明日も明後日もあたたかく生きて行きます
生きて行きましょう｡

懐かしいONE STEP FORWARDの歌詞に乗せ

静かに動き出す歯車
針の音吹く風
揺れる波音止まることなく
止むことなく絶え間なく響くよ

ONE STEP FORWARD
優しい音を感じたよ
星の声を心に感じ進む今へ
過去の声今の音明日の鼓動運ぶ空

凍えた心支える声
手を取り感じるよ
漂い響く雲たちの声
目に見えないほど小さなかけら

ONE STEP FORWARD
優しい音を感じたよ
星の声を心に感じ進む今へ
過去の声今の音明日の鼓動運ぶ空……

今の気持ちと重なる部分があるこの歌
この歌詞を書いた時の自分と今の自分
変わらない自分

今もあたたかく生きている弟､自分､弟夫婦､家族､あたたかなみなさん､時間は経てど一歩づつ踏みしめ明日を生きる｡

みなさん今一度ONE STEP FORWARDの歌詞に耳を傾け優しい風を感じてみてください

みんなあたたかく生きましょう｡

今週の後半にかけての時間も心あたたかな時間でありますように
土曜日の天使達の声が世界中に響きますように……

優しい風が心にそっと吹きますように……

今週も耳を心を傾けてくださりありがとうございました……

また来週

強く優しくあたたかく
生きよう｡

髙橋昭博

One Step : The gears start to move quietly, the wind blows the sound of the needle

Monday is the day my brother spends his last night at the current hospital where he has spent about five months.
Yesterday, Tuesday afternoon at 1:30 p.m., I was transferred from an acute care hospital in Yokohama, where I had spent a long time, to a hospital with a palliative care ward in Kawasaki.

I myself rode my bicycle from a hospital in Yokohama to a hospital deep in the new industrial area of Kawasaki to see off my husband and wife.

From the scenery along the river so far, we drove along the rust-colored road to the international hospital located next to the industrial area, where you can almost feel Haneda Airport.
A hospital where my grandparents were also hospitalized.

Yesterday, my younger brother was carried on a stretcher, but for the first time in a long time, he felt the outside air, felt the sunlight, and felt the cold winter air change from the hot summer air, if only for a moment.

When I was hospitalized, I also loved the sunlight and wind outside.
For a moment, my younger brother felt the atmosphere for the first time in about five months.
I wonder how it was…

The air on the way to the new hospital is incomparably worse than before.
Still, from now on, I’ll run down the road to meet you again.
I guess we’ll gradually get used to each other again and it’ll feel like we’re so close that nothing happens…

A new life in a new environment
Although my younger brother may be nervous and unable to sleep for several days.
The new hospital will move from the previous 8th floor to the 6th floor…
I took another step back and approached the doorway.

I would be happy if my wife and family could continue to support my younger brother so that he can walk out of the door healthy.

A younger brother who has taken another step forward
and brother and wife

I was able to say hello to the people who took care of me at previous hospitals, and see my younger brother off to the new hospital.
And I could feel my younger brother changing into his new hospital clothes and calmly relaxing from his fatigue.
It was great to see the relieved look on the couple’s faces…

Say goodbye to the scenery so far
Konnichiha for the future scenery

I’m also one step into the hectic days
I will take every step with this brain so that I can reach my younger brother.

Today is also Wednesday, when things started moving again early in the morning.

I will take a step forward in each precious moment and live warmly today, tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow.
Let’s go on living.

Along with the nostalgic lyrics of ONE STEP FORWARD

Gears that start moving quietly
The sound of a needle blows in the wind
The sound of swaying waves never stops
It echoes continuously without stopping

ONE STEP FORWARD
I felt a gentle sound
I feel the voice of the stars in my heart and move forward to the present
The voice of the past The sound of the present The sky that carries the heartbeat of tomorrow

A voice that supports my frozen heart
I’ll take your hand and feel it
The voices of the clouds echoing
Pieces so small you can’t see them

ONE STEP FORWARD
I felt a gentle sound
I feel the voice of the stars in my heart and move forward to the present
The voice of the past, the sound of the present, the sky that carries the heartbeat of tomorrow…

This song has parts that overlap with my current feelings.
Me when I wrote these lyrics and me now
My unchanging self

My younger brother, who is still living warmly, myself, my younger brother and his wife, my family, and all the warm people, as time passes, I take one step at a time and live for tomorrow.

Everyone, please listen to the lyrics of ONE STEP FORWARD once again and feel the gentle breeze.

Let’s all live warmly.

I hope that the second half of this week will be a warm time for you as well.
May the voices of Saturday’s angels be heard all over the world…

May a gentle wind blow gently into your heart…

Thank you for listening and listening this week…

See you next week

strong, gentle and warm
Let’s live.

Akihiro Takahashi